School has been interesting. I think interesting is an apt word to use- having no positive nor negative inclination to it. Have got some pretty strong feelings, but as "strong feelings" might suggest, that means it's not gonna appear here. Hahaha. Still, here are some random facts/ things....... randoms.

1. I won't say something just to humor you, or fit into the clique. If I agree, I will usually say I agree. If I disagree though, usually I just keep the thoughts to myself (But of course there ARE occasions where I'll voice out what I think....) Either way, you can trust me to not verbally agree with something my heart/ brain disagrees with (: Basically, I do not say what I don't mean. Aye.

2. I keep secrets. Well (:

3. I'm still procrastinating. Yesterday night I actually decided studying makes me happy. Okay that really sounded weird, but hmm. Getting into the "studying" mood and actually learning stuff does make one happy. It's the inability to understand things that you're supposed to know which makes you dislike studying. I really loved one of Ashin's blog posts about exams, he said as a student he hated exams, but eventually when he grew up, he realised it was himself that he hated; not the exams. He hated the him that wasn't confident, the him that wasn't brave enough to face the books.

Mentioned this a lot of times, but I would still like to say that I really adore Ashin's lyrics/ posts. He makes a lot of sense. So back to my point- I'm still procrastinating. Yesterday night I decided I'd make a happy student; today when I came home I turned on the computer and procrastinated till now. Oh well.

4. As a continuation/ addition to point 3, resolutions honestly kinda suck for me -_- SAY every time when my mom dampens my mood when I tell her about Tian, I decide that I shall stop telling her about Tian. The next day I'll still tell her about stuff I read online and things that happened -_- It's REALLY hard to make me commit to a decision hahaha. Oh well.

5. Oh boy I had something to say and now I forgot. Gah. Okay this point shall be about my bad memory then. Uh. SO like what just happened, I forget stuff very easily. My brain... is bad. When too many thoughts run through it, some get lost in the process. I like everything down in notes cos I write really slowly and sometimes when writing, I forget what the teacher mentioned. And it's really irritating :(

I've something to say, I don't get the chance to say it; when the person who was talking stops talking, I forget what I wanted to say. I open a firefox tab, and forget what site I was gonna go to. I go to a site, and forget what I was gonna do with it. I walk to the freezer, open the door, and stare into it like I was never there for anything.

Brain, you suck.

6. I don't know if I've posted anything about this before, but I think it's really tough to be a celebrity. In fact, just any other public figure. But since I'm more familiar with celebrities, here I go.

Celebrities can't have normal body clocks. Time differences, horribly packed schedules and work in general just stop them from sleeping normally. They only can sleep on the plane/ when they have breaks. YET, they cannot be expressionless. Cos then they'd be accused by i) reporters or ii) non-understanding fans that they are being proud/ attitude/ dao. And then there will be less fans interested in chasing them, so it's a big no-no. That means they have to smile all the time, regardless of how tired they are. Autographs, pictures, fans ask for it, you've to try your best to accede to it. So... Okay after all these work demands, one would want to go home to his/ her comfort zone (when there is actually a chance). They go home, and get stalked by paparazzi. Love lives have to be totally low-profile, cos what you usually get is not friendly teasing but slamming and flamings from some irrational fans.

List goes on, basically all I can say is that celebrities genuinely have no lives of their own. Heck, taking a picture with your friend would start rumors. & Of course, with supporters comes haters too. How utterly depressing.

* I'm considering things from my point of view and not stating them as a matter-of-fact.

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Yes I realize I've been rambling a lot recently. Oh well. Stress I think. Hahahah.

On other news,

1. I watched DEAR JOHN & ALICE IN WONDERLAND with Wolfy yesterday :D

i) I actually really enjoyed Dear John. Somehow. I guess apart from the ending, I liked the show. I really liked Channing hahaha.

ii) Alice in Wonderland... Well, Johnny Depp :D IDK why though, I wasn't too thrilled by the movie. Still worth a watch though :D 3D or not 3D, I don't think there'll be too much of a difference. I think.

2. I know the China Map now. There was a China Studies test today, so I tried to memorize the map. I knew it better before the test. Sorta blanked out during the test, brain did not really want to remember. Hahah.

3. Had a math test last week, wasn't too good :(

4. Another math test and General Paper test this week. I've nothing to say for GP cos I've had 4 different teachers for 3 lessons. I don't know if it's win or fail. Got to revise math. Ain't too good with it (yet?)

5. Got to start on History. Cold War and SEA. Both are interesting I would say, but Cold War appeals to me more (:

SO TATA OFF I GO TO HISTORY!

Till the next time (:

*** Ethan fans: Please trust Ethan regardless of what tabloids might publish. We know him better than tabloids which are just out for juicy information which tarnishes reputations yeah (:

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艋舺 MONGA opening in Singapore theatres on 15th April 2010.

Ethan and Mark will be coming on 05th April 2010 to promote this movie. DETAILS TBD, but the premiere is to be held at Vivocity.



Starring: Ethan Ruan Jing Tian, Mark Zhao You Ting
Director: Doze Niu Cheng-ze
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Friends I don't mind watching it 9420492350923 times as long as you wanna go :D

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SO! I heard that local newspapers also reported on Tian's big hooha with Weining (Tiffany Hsu), HIS GIRLFRIEND. Just in case they don't do a follow up, here goes a complete story (note: from media interviews/ news reports) People who didn't watch enough videos/ read enough news can understand better too (: Random additional information included as well; and if you're just lazy to get through the post, just know that he's still the Mr big nice guy/ devoted lover. (Btw, sorry for switching between Ethan and Tian throughout this post -_- Can't get rid of the habit, sorry)

What the big hooha was all about:

This news came out on 3rd March 2010.

On 28th Feb '10 ard 5-6am, Ethan brought this 160cm long-haired girl to a 5-star hotel at Taichung. He used his own I/C to check-in, and Ethan and the girl stayed at the hotel for 7hours, only leaving at around 1pm- checking out too. (Other info: The room Ethan got was a suite which costs NT16000 per night)

So. Boy + Girl + Hotel. And we all know what people do in hotel rooms, therefore there was a big scandal.

Also, after this incident, apparently Weining changed her relationship status on facebook, from "In a relationship", to "It's complicated". She also updated her status to "多爆炸性的禮物" (translation: what a shocking present) (Other info: There were 3 "likes" to the change in relationship status. Idiots -_-)

Ethan's explanation:



That 160cm girl in question here is his friend's girlfriend. That very night they went to a friend's lounge, and they were there till around 5am. Because it was so late, Ethan didn't want to wake his mom up (he didn't have the house keys); and thus he didn't go home. As for that girl, his friend asked him to bring her back first, he'll fetch her later.

So yep. They went to a hotel, Ethan got a suite- he slept in the living room sofa while the girl slept on the bed. Basically, they slept at two separate areas. Later in the night (morning?), his friend came to find his girlfriend too. They later checked out at 1pm, Ethan did absolutely nothing with the girl; plus he said he wouldn't be THAT stupid to check in and check out with his own I/C if he really wanted to do something.

(He knows) it's a big matter to not go home, so he did tell Weining (I'm guessing AFTER) Weining's moods? He doesn't know. (Other info: Right at the start of their relationship, Ethan and Weining agreed to never tell white lies to each other)

Weining's response:

Please watch video here: Apple Daily Site- CLICK

Summarised into one sentence, she said "我一直都相信他" (Translation: I've trusted him all the way) Another variation of this statement goes "我永遠都相信/ 支持他"）



The media approached her at the filming site, and asked her questions about the hooha. Asked if they argued, if she is angry etc. Did they argue? No, since she knows the girl Ethan brought to the hotel, they are all friends who know each other. Did she know Ethan went drinking? She knows he is at Taichung, but she has been filming (in Taipei I presume).

She later also expressed that she trusts her boyfriend completely(:

(After the interview she went back home; shortly after Tian went home too. They were wearing the same cap)

Other artistes' response:

Liu Pinyan (Yanyan; Sweety. Ethan's ex), Janine Chang & Huahua all expressed that they trust Ethan. Huahua had stayed with Tian for 6months before and she knows what he is like; Janine trusts in Tian's devotedness.

Weining's mom trusts him too, and believes grown-ups like the both of them should answer for their own actions.

Ethan's declaration

So! The media asked Tian questions again. This time it was more of a confession of feelings thing (and if you ask me, I think he sounded horribly perplexed and tired in the call) He is feeling really guilty, and knows that he is in the wrong. In fact, very wrong. Thus, he's gonna spend time to mend and protect this relationship. How's he gonna make up to her? At this point of time, he doesn't know too. BUT she is his everything, so he'll do everything, everything he can (to be a nice boyfriend) He doesn't give a shit about what others think, the only person whose opinions matter is Weining and Weining only. Nobody should put any pressure on her, so if anyone has any questions, please go to him directly.

What I think

From a fan's point of view, may I just say that I trust him. I mean if he wanted to fool around and have a one night stand, he really wouldn't be THAT stupid to choose such a glamorous hotel. He just needs a bed somewhere.

Friends will also know that I'm a really big fan of their relationship. I think they are REALLY cute together, and when I saw the news initally I was quite ....-ed. Somehow I think if they actually did break up because of this, I wouldn't like him THISSSSSSSSSS much anymore. Don't ask me why, I know there's no right or wrong in love, but that's what I thought at that point of time.

Anyway, so I was honestly quite irritated by this piece of news. One, at the media for blowing things out of proportion; and two because Tian really should have knew better and not do things that might cause misunderstandings. Hey it's not the first day you're in the entertainment industry. He isn't entirely at fault, in fact he didn't really do anything wrong, but he just should have knew better. And after telling (consulting?) some of my friends, they all came to a consensus that Weining is probably pissed off cos Tian didn't tell her BEFORE HAND that he's bringing a girl to a hotel. My mom sides with Weining too, claiming I don't understand how this jealously thing works. Oh well, I guess she's right.

[On this note, I think Tian would be a complete idiot if he really did fool around (which, of course he didn't). Weining is the epitome of pretty, and she's all kind and gentle too (No I don't know her well, from what I see/ heard). Looks-wise, man I've to say she's really too good for tian. So yes.]

When I saw his love declaration/ confession thingy in the morning though, I swear I was this close in melting into a puddle. And I was but a by-stander. Like hey! He told the whole world that you're everything to him! That about the most extreme thing anybody could do if you ask me. Celebrities are usually afraid of losing fans if their relationships get exposed. In fact, all of them are afraid; and that's why you see Andy Lau only admitting to his and the M'sian girl's relationship only after so long. Most artistes' relationships really have to be kept under wraps most of the time.

For tian though, it's just the exact opposite. Everyday when I carry out my stalking routine, it's but perfectly normal to see fans taking pictures with both Tian & Weining. They actually go out in the open. I guess it's because fans have more or less accepted them already hahaha. And I'm glad for that too. If you're reading this, please be happy for them too.

(Okay please note that the above may be really biased; fans of other romantic idols, please don't protest ^^" PEACE! I love artistes who admit relationships. I understand those who don't too)

So where was I? Uh. Right. So I really trust Ethan, and I hope their relationship will go really stable, on and on and on. I want 阮綿綿 or 阮趴趴　yeah!!!! Once again, I wish nothing but the best to the both of them.

Okay that's about it!

[Feel free to correct me if anything's wrong/ I missed out anything, got everything from memory :D Also, sorry to non-ethan fans following me on twitter, have been tweeting too much stupid stuff >_<" PAISEH!]


EDIT: Ethan's message to fans at ethan168mn.com

Original Message here: http://www.ethan168mn.com/bbs/read.php?tid=18963#417222

Translation:

I've never took a mourning leave (from work).
The only mistake I've made; is having Tiffany go through all this.
She is everything I own, yet now, because of me, she's in the midst of all this trouble.
With regards to this scandal, I am really very guilty.
Friends who are willing to trust me, I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Such a private matter like relationships has since become a heated debate.
It's as if I really did harm this world in a way or another.

After thinking through it for the past few days; I shouldn't fear anything anymore.
This scandal was solely caused by me; and I'll do my best to face it.
I sincerely apologise for the worry I've caused everyone.

SIGH

小天加油!
加油! 加油! 再加油!!!

1. FOLLOW ME AT TWITTER.COM/ZIAI cos I've been updating it pretty often :D Relatively, that is.

2. I am currently pretty busy with Home-based learning assignments, so I'm stopping this post here. THINGS WILL WORK OUT!!

YESTERDAY, I really realized the meaning of "eye-candy".
HAHAHAHAHAHHA.

But omg stupid -_-
I refuse to be categorized under the same group as the other fangirls...........

幹

First week of official JC life

CT is nice (:
Classmates are kind (:
China Studies in English is interesting (: Can't wait to do Taiwan China relations!! :D
Econs lecturer makes effort and is interesting but not enlightening :/
Econs tutor is awesome (:
Fishtank is a nice place :D
International history tutor is beyond amusing (:
Math teacher is good too (:
GP tutor makes me think (:
Project Work hasn't started, not exactly looking forward to it :/

Thus, this week summarized:
(: + (: + :D + :/ + (: + :D + (: + (: + (: + :/ = (: (Rounded off to 2 symbols)

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Okay that was retarded. But comments are entirely true, some feelings may not necessarily be here, but those that are here are words from the heart (:

Other happenings in the past week:



6I '05 GATHERING! Awesome shiz I tell you.



Mr Juan Ching-tien went to Berlin with Monga cast.

Oh my god the 3 of them all look too awesome kifskfmsmfsmgnsgsgs. ESPECIALLY 鳳小岳Rhydian Vaughan OMFG.

And that accent of his. AH.



Now just kill me.



Hahahah but of course tian looks awesome too XD (nevertheless Mark looks really good too, possibly even better than my object of obsession ^^) Side note though, I really really adore tian's hair. HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I SHALL ATTEMPT TO STILL FANGIRL WHILE STUDYING WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Busy busy busy ho ho ho

I can stop myself from thinking aloud. That is, when I know some thoughts should be kept private; when I want some thoughts to be kept private, I do have the ability to think silently and/ or stop myself from writing stuff on my blog/ facebook.

Hmm... Then again the person is not claiming to not want attention, so I shall leave it at that. Hahahha.

Life; honestly a big joke.

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I'm thinking a little more than normal today, so yeah just thought I'd add something.

Sometimes you're obliged to like and think positively about something. Because that was what you expected it to be; that was what you decided on. So you attempt to convince yourself that the decision was right. In front of others, you also try to make sure they don't even suspect that you don't like your current situation. Because you're scared. You're scared they would laugh. Cos you were the one who made the decision.

Hmm.

... Guess the grass is always greener on the other side aeh?

All the best for 2010.

1. Mainland reporters, STOP READING 艋舺 as MENG XIA!!! WTF?!?!?! IT'S EITHER MENG JIA or MANG-GAR.

2. TAIWAN IS TAIWAN. A COUNTRY. I can't explain how much it pisses me off to see 中國台灣. NO WAY.

Also, PLEASE SUPPORT MONGA IN THE THEATERS WHEN IT IS RELEASED.
IN THE THEATERS.

Thank you.

HAPPY CNY EVERYONE

Everyday feels like a Friday. I don't know if it's due to the lack of (home)work, but even Monday feels like a Friday. Looks like the first few months of college really gives you the impression that it's gonna be slack slack slack hahaha.

SO! These few fridays, I

Went out with Wolfy and watched THE IMAGINARIUM OF DOCTOR PARNASSUS and NEW YORK I LOVE YOU





Both movies were good, though I didn't exactly understand the first one o.o It was still really awesome though; and I feel like I need to watch it again to... try to understand it better. Hahaha.

NYILY was good too :D I really have an extremely soft spot for old people. Old people, animals and cute stuff never fail in making me feel for them. So the last story of NYILU was about this old couple, and they were so cute and sweet I was gonna cry -_- Faithful men for the win. Bleahzzzzzzzz and 凸 to old men who think they can still win the hearts of young MICs.

Right.

Did something to my iPod



BECAUSE the apple firmware update, which hardly made a difference, screwed up and I had to restore the iPod- which simply means all my applications went POOF. I was super pissed off and irritated to say the least, hence I decided it was time to jailbreak that thing.

Paid applications hohohoho.



:D

Replaced my trusty Billabong wallet with a crumpler one :D



Cos... The billabong one was just getting really old. "Billabong" can't even be read anymore -_- So yep. The crumpler one caught my eye when we went to the store on Sunday, and I decided to get it :D

Also went shopping for CNY clothes and food and goodies and stuff! I wouldn't say I'm really really looking forward to Chinese New Year- the slackish school made me not feel for the need of a "break"- but still hope it's gonna be all fun! ^^ Steamboat! Mahjong! Food! Chatting! Rotting! TV! YAY!

Yay for a life outside school (:

With regards to school, orientation officially ended last Friday (the actual Friday ^^") and the campfire was beyond awesome. It really made me feel more for HC, and yeah! Brought a lot of us closer I guess. Hope school is gonna continue being so awesome in time to come!

To end this off, here's a shoutout:
HEY YOU I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!

距離產生美.



(totally unrelated picture taken on 14th Jan '10 3:44am at HK airport; but pretty cool don't you think? Hahahah :D)

Hmm... How should I start? Distance... is something that has inconsistent effects. Being apart lets you have the chance to imagine how nice one is/ can be, stops you from realizing things you wouldn't like to know (sometimes... you'll realize the more you know, the less you know); and prevents the chances of arguments. Less talk = less conflicts for sure.

On the other hand... Distance might just cause the drifting apart of two parties.

If two can remain good friends and have a special place in each others' hearts without having to meet too much though, I think I like the idea of having a "distance".

(:

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Looking at my recent blog posts, I think it'll be better for me to just have a giant twitter page as my blog -_- Hahahah

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On another note, this is just something I thought I'd mention. I'm really thankful for having got a place at HCI. I mean, hey it's HCI. Honestly, given my IQ and stuff I reckon it'd be impossible for me to secure a place in such a school if I were not from nanyang. So... yeah haha. Gonna treasure this!

ALSO, I guess the release of the CT lists was a blatant sign that literature is an incorrect choice. Seriously. It's just about the most obvious hint ever. And I guess how smooth the changing of subjects went also means something... Y'know, like it was never meant to be like that, hence.

I'm not one, or rather I don't want to be one who regrets and looks back, hence 10A11 '10 FOR THE WIN MAN! :D I think the numbers look auspicious too :P

I believe in fate, but I believe in fighting to realize your fate too. On a similar note, I know I digress; there's really no need to convince one who believes in fate that there's no such thing as fate. If one really does believe in fate, he/ she will think your not believing in fate is fated. (Hahahha whatever, as long as it makes sense to me!)

So lets see how 2010 will turn out (:

Lots of love,
ZIAI

I'm a fan of lectures (:

I really don't like being kept in the dark.
It makes me feel safer and happier to know everything.
:/

ETHAN FANS:

Some variety show appearances you might want to watch/ look out for:

10/01/10: Power Sunday (only the last "crime-scene" segment)
15/01/10: 百萬小學堂 (Bai Wan Xiao Xue Tang)
18/01/10: 國光幫幫忙 (Guo Guang Bang Bang Mang)
20/01/10: 康熙來了 (Kang Xi Lai Le)
28/01/10: 我愛黑澀會棒棒堂 (Wo Ai He Se Hui Bang Bang Tang)
31/01/10: 完全娛樂（Wan Quan Yu Le)

They also recorded a 大學生了沒 episode which has yet to be broadcast.