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2011-12-31T00:42:00.004+08:00

2011-12-22T21:24:00.000+08:00

I FOUND IT ON YOUTUBE I FOUND IT I FOUND IT
WATCH WATCH WATCH

Best purchase of the year: iPad 2!!!!!!!! OH THE JOY OF REWATCHING VIDEOS AND JUST DUMPING RMVB FILES INTO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

但願人長久千里共嬋娟

2011-12-18T14:52:00.009+08:00

To avoid obligating anyone into reading my repetitive and boring tweets, I shall post this here. Amazingly enough (okay not too surprising for me) I'm still at the ending of No Regrets, one which I loathed initially but eventually grew to appreciate.

//spoiler alert//

I didn't like it at first because I generally dislike shows which "fast-forward" time. Like "1 month later", that kinda thing? No Regrets brought this to a whole new level, there were 3 "10 years later" in the last episode. During this period of time Lau Sing and Gau Mui were completely separated, and that irked the shit outta me. HOW CAN THE SCRIPT-WRITERS SEPARATE THEM FOR 30 BLOODY YEARS????????

After I watched it for a few more times though, it suddenly appealed to me so much. The simplicity of it all, the sweet flashbacks, and the significance which it holds, that time is hardly a limiting factor or a boundary; that it doesn't matter even if two loving souls are separated for an extended period of time. It doesn't matter because reunification is only a matter of time and love can stand the test of time. Summed up perfectly by the 8 words "但願人長久千里共嬋娟", meaning as long as your loved ones are well and alive it doesn't matter if you are separated; sentiments can well be transmitted through the moon. I obviously had to Google for the meaning of this phrase, but its significance is immense omg. It'll really be hard to appreciate the ending if this phrase is dismissed just like that (which I did initially)

Sigh. Way too sweet, and the show did round off well...

紅蝴蝶 (Red Butterfly) is also a beautiful song, especially Wayne Lai's version. People with deep voices give out such a deep sense of security, hehe. Have I ever mentioned how much I love flashbacks? Because I really do. Excessive flashbacks do get irritating, but correct moments it works magic.

Enjoy (not my favorite scene, but the only one available on youtube):

Wayne Lai and Sheren Tang <3 Can't wait for their next collaboration!!

On a related note, I really only do fall for serious guys (characters). Flippant guys are just completely unappealing (refer to Kevin Cheng in Ghetto Justice)....... Profession doesn't matter, I'm just a complete sucker for serious guys who possess some degree of wit) Oh yeah, I also *only* like the male leads.

Sigh

2011-12-12T00:39:00.009+08:00

I want to post something, I really do. I've nine consecutive drafts, some half-complete, some complete but controversial, and some just random musings. Either way before I decide to post something proper, here goes a few pictures and a declaration:

GUYS WITH SMALL EYES AND DIMPLES ARE SO ENDEARING

Yes, my latest object of adoration is WAYNE LAI YIU-CHENG

I watched Rosy Business after Forensic Heroes III (Yes I know I'm slow), and was reminded of someone in this scene :0

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TIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!

BOTH ARE SO UGLY BUT OMG! 也太像了吧!!

=OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Goes to show I'm really not that superficial hahahahha. Okay back to No Regrets :D I'LL UPDATE SOON

2011-11-21T22:22:00.002+08:00

Sigh why did my love for xiaoquan last so. short. :(

Disgusted

2011-10-19T00:27:00.001+08:00

A 2 year-old is hit by a car. More than a dozen people pass her without stopping

Have got no time and no heart in posting a proper post on this incident, but if you haven't learnt of it/ watched the video, you should: http://www.liveleak.com/view?i=d8a_1318766954 (video is embedded in this link) // Time commentary: http://t.co/2HeWSY3W

AND YOU TELL ME CHINA AIMS TO BE A HARMONIOUS SOCIETY??! Oh wait.. It does need to try. Harder.

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I despise China. Peaceful development, really? Claims of a peaceful rise? Are you sure China would be able to actually rise with people like that? Next superpower? The world is better off hegemonic (read: with the USA as the sole superpower, not china.)

Don't even bother defending them, don't tell me it's a result of societal circumstances that they are like that. It's precisely that that I despise. And any attempt to justify what has happened will only disgust me further. I don't really know if I blame the people, but either way I hate what the prevailing attitudes and mentalities.

While I concede there are exceptions- some of my best friends ever are in fact Chinese- my irrationality takes precedence for most of the rest; I stand firm that most Chinese need a complete overhaul in their value sets.

Ughhhhh fucking disgusted. Sorry needed to swear right there. GARBAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-10-18T00:56:00.001+08:00

I offer you three Ha's.

Ha ha ha.

2011-10-10T08:42:00.001+08:00

Singapore is way too overrated; nobody should learn from this uncaring authoritarian state. It nurtures only judgmental and uncaring pricks. I'm of course but another product of Singapore Inc.

2011-10-05T16:40:00.001+08:00

Today, my cousin pronounced 鞋 (xíe) as 學 (xúe). I corrected him. Later he read it as 學 again. I corrected him again. He said that was what his teacher taught him. I told him he has to change; it's sad for one to be proficient in neither Chinese nor English. He decided it's a defining characteristic for Singaporeans, something making us uniquely Singapore.

Hell no.

I'm not trying to be smug; my English still sucks, both grammar and vocab, while my Chinese sucks as well. I can't pronounce words properly too. But y'know what, at least I try. Amongst Singaporeans use singlish all you like- really, it's cute- but make sure it's an alternative rather than your only option.

It's disgraceful to only know singlish and actually be proud of it as something uniquely Singapore. It's unique cos nobody would want to copy it. Forget the debate about American or British English, can we first make sure our campaigns work towards equipping Singaporeans with proper alternatives for effective communication??????

Ugh!! (-____-) Learn! Try! Don't dismiss the importance of learning proper English and Chinese!! Gah. I think it's cool to be able to pride oneself in being effectively bilingual, so can we please try??????

Anyway. I'm obviously more critical towards Chinese pronunciations cos I'm more familiar with it, so...

Common errors (more prevalent among old people......)

鞋子 (xíe, NOT xúe. Boots are xūe zi though)
結婚 (jíe hūn, not fēn)

And generally mixes between sì and shì, shēng and shēn, xīn and xīng etc.

On this note..... People, please spell properly. Spell TO out. DON'T GET RID OF THE O I THINK IT'S ATROCIOUS TO SPELL TO AS T. Also, spell thanks and sorry in full! Especially sorry, it reeks of insincerity when sorry is spelt sry. SERIOUSLY?!!!! R U SURE U R SRY? I DUN TINK SO LOH.

GAHHHHH OK KTHXBAI

2011-08-27T02:08:00.002+08:00

Whoever asked for this picture, here you go:

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New eye-candy!!!!!!!!!!

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Okay no j/k it's still xiaoquan. When he was 17 ._. My mom likes insisting that he looks really old, but nah I guess he looks fine here :D If you think about it, actually all these artistes have quite tough lives.. Makiyo started acting when she was 14, Weining when she was 16, Xiaoquan when he was 17.. They all made it this far through pure hard work, and I guess that's what makes that worthy of being labelled as "idols". Beyond the ~superficial~ looks there are really deeper stuff worth pondering into that are admirable.

Anyway.

I'd kill for classmates like that hahaha. Granted my class has its share of ~good-looking~ ones, but bleah.

Anyhoo, because it's really time for a hiatus of sorts, here's a video of xiaoquan (wow I've no idea how the latter part of this sentence is linked to the hiatus o.o but anyway)

Might offer you some insight into why I love his voice so much haha! Take special notice of the way he says 開心, I've an irrational love for it.

Hehe!

唉唷不錯喔

2011-08-23T19:48:00.005+08:00

What I do to relieve stress...............
(Yes, I made them-- Credit not needed :])

2011-07-30T01:00:00.002+08:00

做人還是不要太貪心的好
知足常樂知足最快樂
凡事盡力, 做到最好, 其他的就留給天意 :)
是說我相信也絕對認同天不應該幫助那些不幫自己的人 (頹廢的過人生嗎...?)
所以一定要證明給老天和自己和其他人
你一定做得到
OH YEAH 人生是美好的
加油
走下去
因為沒時間休息啦!!

2011-07-22T18:58:00.001+08:00

Heart Concentration Ratio 2: 98%

The husband has another pie chart to himself.

2011-07-06T17:26:00.002+08:00

HELP I'M IN LOVE AGAIN.

HOW TO NOT LOVE A GUY LIKE THAT I ASK YOU?!?!!?!?!?!?!!
HOW HOW HOW

孝全啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-07-03T11:22:00.002+08:00

Small note about award ceremonies cos I'm honestly feeling rather indignant towards Jay being a potential nominee for Best Host at this year's GBA.

I think awards should not serve as an encouragement. In the sense it IS something that encourages of course; but if you're not deserving the award, you are just not, and judges should not choose a winner based simply on (a) how hard he has tried, or (b) who he is. I love Jay, I really do, but dude his forte is not in hosting. Like how I'd be speechless if tian gets nominated for GMAs one day as well. Because... Yes he can't sing. LIKEWISE, JAY CANNOT HOST. Is it even a secret that the show's ratings were based entirely on his popularity as a singer? And the show's ratings were still low despite that, obviously saying something about his hosting skills. I appreciate and admire how he roots for his friends as well, but uhhhh like him they can't host.

Judgement is entirely subjective of course... But bleah. Honestly. Someone needs to wake him up... (-_-)

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Also... Let's just say this "best" thing is entirely relative. Relative to the other nominees in that year, and up to the judgement of the judges of that year. Which means getting an award merely means you're possibly better than the other people whom you've fought with then, in the eyes of professional peeps. Recognition of course, but hmmm not wise to read too much into it.

-_- if I'm that resistant towards awards why am I still feeling (-_-) that jay's standing for nomination??? Ugh okay ignore this post. But if anything I'm once again convinced that the golden bell awards are faaaaaarrrny

Tsk.

2011-05-29T21:38:00.005+08:00

I just renewed ohmytian.com ._. One of the cons of having a domain name I guess, you wouldn't bear to let it go even if the website/ blog dies. In the sense you wouldn't want to access ohmytian.com in the future and see it being ran as an entirely different site when it once belonged to you. Oh well. I like the name though, so... let's see how it can be revived after November 25th :)

The June holidays just started, I'm pretty much aware of the NEED to study this holidays. Not gonna slack too much time away, not gonna sleep too much away too- I realised the more you sleep, the more tired you're through the day- and gonna study properly, hopefully :)

Quite worried for the A Levels, seriously. It's as if I've always placed quite a lot of emphasis on it yet efforts don't reflect it... It's all talk and no action :( I think I need to find some way around it soon. I always tend to think it's okay for not doing well *this* time, after all I'll make it a good one for the final stretch. This mentality needs to go away.

Pretty much occupied for the entire holiday already, I really really want to make it a productive one. While I'm really rather desperate to meet tian, he who decided to avoid me, I think I wouldn't have the time to go to Taiwan :/ Stupid boy can't you go to army later?!?!?!!?!?!!!!!

To Do:
- China Studies Independent Study (HAVE to do a good job)
- Practice some stuff for the SATS
- Revise for all the subjects, that is 1.5 years of content for all 4 key ones (excluding GP)
- Do up own notes (EFFECTIVE REVISION PLEASE)

I can do this gogogo!!!!

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Meanwhile just so this post isn't void of media

CURRENT HOMESCREEN (MADE OF NOTHING BUT LOVE)

Tian's latest PEPSI commercial (once again, pepsi concepts -_-)

2011-05-11T00:58:00.002+08:00

TIME TIME TIME GIVE ME MORE TIME.

On a side note, politics is something that really shouldn't be discussed, it makes me *so* angry I don't even know where to start. Guess the differences in political inclinations REALLY is a bomb... Don't ignite it. Uhhh yeah. So imma not start anything here too :]

DETERMINATION I NEEEEEEEEEEEEED IT.

2011-05-06T22:56:00.003+08:00

Note: If you are my friend, or still want to be respected by me- or actually, just be seen as a respectable human being as a whole- please refrain entirely from making any digs whatsoever at Mr Chiam See Tong. For the record, I have only felt disgusted when I saw any impersonations of him, even if no offense was meant.

Of course everyone is entitled to his/ her own opinions, but the above is my take on it- do not, please do not mock at him. I think Mr Chiam is an absolutely amazing man, who deserves none of the physical aliments that have since befallen him. But if anything, they only exemplify Mr Chiam's willingness to serve, and love for Singapore. Honestly, my impressions and knowledge of him only came recently, but he's such an inspirational figure I'm just horribly touched.

Nothing but the best for Mr Chiam please.

On the note on the GEs, I've also been really irritated by some stuff. Without going into the specifics, I am
1. Insistent on my stance that celebrities should not be affliated in any way with political parties and/ or figures,
2. Irritated by uninformed statements upon being influenced by a celebrity- i think that's just stupid. Luckily most are just kids though. Ha.

Shan't say anything else cos... I just don't think I'd be able to add value to the stuff that have already been floating around anyway. Nevertheless, to quote everyone else, do VOTE WISELY tomorrow, and may the most worthy parties emerge based purely on informed choices and perhaps, inclinations- and not affected my fear in any form.

:)

2011-05-02T01:47:00.002+08:00

Do read the following, and I hope it touches you as much as it touched me :)

Nothing but respect for Mr Chiam See Tong.

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Dedicated to Chiam See Tong and all Singaporeans
by Lin Shiyun

In this General Election, I may appear to some people as a kind of political whore. My best friend, Zai Kuning, and I were running all over the island to attend the nominations and rallies. We have not stopped thinking about Singapore (some of you may dismiss it as "politics") since the nomination day, even in our sleeps, and I know that we are not alone. I have many friends who are doing the same, and those who don't run around like a getai star are always faithfully at the computer feeding us up-to-date information like the statellite (you know who you are :)).

It is as if the elections have consumed our lives, but I would like to see it that we are all woken up, and realised that if we do not actively participate and claim our narratives, there is no doubt that the ruling party will literally consume all of us.

I have been planning to write a piece on the six reasons why I cannot allow PAP to hold absolute power in parliament, but after attending tonight's rally at Potong Pasir, I can't help myself but to write about how Mr. Chiam See Tong have touched and enlightened me.

I attended two rallies prior to this: SDP and WP rally at commonwealth and serangoon respectively. I was very impressed by the "Winning-11" team that the SDP has garnered as each of them respresented to me a distinct and genuine interest in the "software" (to quote Dr.Ang) of the society - teacher, social worker, ex-political detainee, psychiatrist... I am convinced that they will take care of the less priviledged in the society, and they have promised to give half their allowance to the needy in the community if they were to be elected. Over at WP rally, although I was not particularly impressed by what the candidates had said, the number of people who were there to listen was intoxicating and certainly, WP will be a great catalyst for change in the parliament.

However, after two rallies, I felt I had a bit enough of the PAP bashing. The attack of the lack of accountability and problems of PAP is of course, very relevant and necessary (I am still going around with "vote opposition" statements pasted on my back) but personally I think I am clear enough about the atrocities of the ruling party: What PAP propagates is basically a selfish, self-preserving culture. All the bad policies and tactics they have devised is a result of this warped immoral thinking, and definitely, it is poisoning the society inside out. I had enough of it, yes, I am fed up! And so I really wanted to know what are the dreams of the opposition parties. I wanted to know how they think about human life. I wanted to know how they can lead Singaporeans to feel beautiful again. Is there someone who can wake up the sleeping flowers in our hearts?

I found the answer in Mr. Chiam See Tong today at SPP rally.

Mr.Chiam began his speech with the question of why he decided to leave Potong Pasir and contest in Bishan-Toa Payoh. He answered, "for the promotion of democracy. There can never be democracy if there is no opposition in the parliament." There isn't a fancy slogan like first-world parliament, which at times really makes one wonder what it means. Mr.Chiam's fight is for democracy, and he will never retire with a peaceful mind if he does not see this happening in Singapore. This is the reason why he has to break a GRC, the dirtiest divide-and-rule tactic the ruling party has devised since JBJ won a seat in Anson.

Do I doubt Mr.Chiam's fight? There is very little room for doubt when you see him in person: frail in physique, strong as steel in the mind, and gentle as a whispering father in his speech. There is almost no room for doubt when you think about how he and Mrs.Chiam have suffered under the government's brutality (he still doesn't have his own office) trying to serve the residents in Potong Pasir the best that they can. And there is absolutely no room for doubt when you continue listening till the end of his speech, because he values every individual as a human being capable of living her or her life to the fullest, and is not just a pawn or a statistics.

I will describe to you my memory of the conclusion of his speech, which took place after quite a long pause. I imagined that his team was worried it would be too tiring for him to continue, but he insisted to carry on.

Like a grandfather telling a story to his grandchildren, Mr.Chiam told us how Lee Kuan Yew first assessed this man called Chiam See Tong. LKY looked at his O level certificate. (laughter from the crowd)

"He counted very carefully. 1. 2. 3...5. Only 5 O levels?" (another round of laughter)

"How many of you have 5 O level?"

My best friend shouted "I don't have any!" as several in the crowd raised their hands.

Mr.Chiam smiled in his heart (I could feel) and replied,

"Then you and I are the same. And I have become a lawyer now."

At this point, the crowd cheered so loudly that a friend who was sleeping on the other side of the estate was woken up by the uproar. After a round of hearty laughter, the crowd fell silent as Mr.Chiam continued speaking (he apologised in the beginning that we have to be very quiet because he couldn't speak loudly). He told us that it is o.k if we are not as smart as the others, and it is o.k if we do not seem as successful as the others. Some of us maybe late bloomers, but all of us have the potential to be better people, as long as we stay true to ourselves and keep trying.

"When there is life there is hope, when there is hope, there will be change."

I will always remember how effortlessly he had delivered that line and how many people were moved to tears while listening to him speak. Besides the immediate reference that despite two strokes, Mr.Chiam continue his fight for change in Singapore, I believe that these tears are also the most heartfelt human emotions that can only be brought out by the encouragement of a most loving father.

It is okay. It is okay.

You have not failed.

I have not failed.

We have not failed.

Just keep trying, my child,

together, let's keep trying.

With each living breath,

We can be better.

We will be better.

Thank you Mr. Chiam See Tong. I was in such a despair after reading and witnessing so much atrocities and brutality that the ruling party and Lee Kuan Yew have done to gentle people like you, Dr. Vincent Cheng, Ms Teo Suh Lung, Dr. Lim Hock Siew and many more people who have been forever silenced in the PAP version of history. I was in such a despair thinking how Singaporeans will disappear with the influx of yet another 1 million foreigners. I was in such a despair thinking how our children will have to grow up in this self-perserving culture that propagates bottomless fear and arrogance thinking about nothing but Money. But tonight, you have shown me, shown all Singaporeans, the light. And I am not angry and upset anymore.

Singaporeans. This election has nothing to do with GRCs. It is time to stop all these ongoing, useless debates and arguments that the ruling party wants to confuse you with. It is time to stop all the hype about Tin Pei Ling Vs Nicole Seah, Worker's Party conspiracy, Mas Selamat, upgrading lifts, grow and share etc.

This election is, with no doubt, about the past, the present, and the future of Singapore.

It is about how PAP has completely crippled our rights to claim the power of our narratives as a living community and worthy individuals. It is about how they do whatever they want without a single question asked or answered. It is about how we, the citizens of Singapore, want the stories of our forefathers and mothers to be remembered and told; It is about how we, the citizens of Singapore, want to write our story from now; It is about how our children, the future citizens of Singapore, can be the writers of their stories without fear.

Ultimately, it is about trying to achieve democracy and equality in Singapore, as long as we have one more living breath.

Singaporeans.

Singapore is not PAP.

I love Singapore very much, but not the PAP.

Please, please don't let them bully and silent us anymore.

2011-04-18T19:05:00.006+08:00

Next time, please direct yourselves to ohmyzu.com / ohmydan.com

OH MY GOD I'M IN LOVE WITH DANIEL WU HELPPPPPPPPP

單身男女

2011-04-15T20:59:00.004+08:00

I watched “Don’t Go Breaking My Heart” with my mama on Tuesday! It has been really long since we last caught a movie together, I think the last time was Jack IrresponsibleFool Neo’s 嚇到笑，which was so bad I’ve no idea why it was even distributed -_- May have caught another movie with my mom in this 2 years, but I just can’t remember. Either way it has been a long time, so we just decided to catch this rom-com (I think?) together. Oh and just so my mom knows who my latest crush is. Hahahahha.

So... the movie. Acknowledging my bias for Daniel Wu right from the start, I still think there’s hardly a fight between the two- that is, Louis Koo and Daniel. Material-wise they’re definitely comparable, and while Louis may appear to be more generous with his money, Daniel is no miser either; I choose to believe he’s actually thoughtful like that. Personality and Morals wise, Daniel Wu beats Louis hands down due to the latter’s extreme dearth of morals. I mean yeah charismatic personality, good looks and all, but he’s just about as superficial as those he picked up along the way.

Daniel- as the guy from Mars- is really too good to be true, so I don’t think there’s any rational reason why one would pick Louis over him. Ironically though, I realise that the rational reason may be due to the irrationality of love- of which a rational person would recognize, and perhaps go along with. Hahaha oh god what am I talking about. One would really be more lucky being loved than loving someone (else) though. I think. Hahaha not as if I’ve any experience to speak of, just saying based on observation :]

Mmhmm so after the movie I’ve fell in love- utterly- with the song 我願意. I don’t really know why, but since horribly long ago I’ve always kinda sad everytime I hear the song. It’s this soft bittersweet feeling that goes into the heart, that encourages the tears to flow ._. I don’t know. It’s just a song that truly touches the heart. I do feel for the lyrics for a lot of other songs, but few songs like this actually touch me before I even… really look at the lyrics? I don’t know. I love 陳曉東's rendition of it, the simple one that depends on vocals alone :D Downloaded all the others too, but I didn't like anything but the original -.- Hahahha.

Anyway, evidently I feel quite a lot for both the song and the movie. There is some redundancy and stuff in the plot, which I shall not touch on cos I just fail at analyzing anything, but on the whole I genuinely enjoyed the movie :) Daniel Wu! <3 I promise to chase you one day hahaha :D

Till then!

2011-04-02T14:30:00.001+08:00

HELLO HERE'S A NEW POST!!!!!! Yayay I'm going to e-awards tonight and I'm rotting the day away. Which is kinda sad really, I bet I'd be emo-ing over this soon. But anyway, YAY FANGIRLING!

But... Because I am wasting so much time, I guess I wouldn't be able to update this blog as frequently as I'd like to :( So........

Oh well.

Here's a nice funny pic to amuse everyone here while we all get busy anyway.

I really don't like Pepsi concepts -.- But anyhoo, HAHAHAHAHAHA TIAN WITH LONG HAIR! Still, hope he'd look better in 血滴子 LOLOLOL.

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HELLOATUS!!

"I feel best when I'm trying hard"- Joseph Gordon Levitt

2011-03-30T22:57:00.003+08:00

Why do I feel like I'm rotting my life away everytime I come online :(

I'm a lucky girl :)

2011-03-25T21:04:00.006+08:00

Random stuff that makes me REALLY HAPPY HAHAHAHA

MAD CUTE HAHAHHAH. Kop-ed from weibo, the caption that came with it says 最左邊得請你自重. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I WANT A PUPPY JUST LIKE THAT!!!!!!!!! Too cute :D

Block Tests just ended, I rotted two entire days away :D New crush: DANIEL WU!!!!!! He's damn hot omg. He's... a man. Like he just exhibits the manly vibe, which sadly none of my current obsessions have. I mean of course tian is man at times too (have I ever mentioned how I find serious men especially charming?) but Dan's just.. Man all the time D:

Actually, I think HK men are more man (adj.) than normal men (noun). HAHAHAHA. I think this POV is inculcated into me since young, my mom started raving about HK guys since I started developing an interest for the opposite sex. Like since I started watching TVB dramas. She'd tell me how superior HK men are to TW boys. Hahahahaha but eventually we both fell for Jerry Yan; and since then I started defending TW guys/ dramas while my mom insisted on her HK ones. She's so into 愛 and 夜市人生 now though, so basically we're all PRO-HK AND PRO-TW now :D

While I've decided to stop rotting my life (this year) away... I think tomorrow will be pretty much rotted away too. Bleah.

I live a much more enriching and exciting life in lalaland ;D

JOIN MEEEEEEEEEEEE TEHRE!

You should know

2011-02-25T01:02:00.003+08:00

1. I hate spring onion. My brain is allergic towards it.
2. I cannot stand the smell of newspapers. Especially Chinese ones.
3. I have a really, really bad temper.
4. I'm especially bad tempered in the morning.
5. I study better alone.
6. This is not always the case, but very often when I'm quiet for an extended period of time during a discussion or a gossip session, it means I really, really disagree with the fundamentals of whatever's being discussed. I just don't like voicing anything out.
7. I cannot make decisions.
8. I never make decisions.
9. I am really not a people-person. If I don't know you well, I'd find it SUPER hard to initiate a conversation. It's like I'd love to, but please- you initiate it.
10. I'm not as dao/ uncooperative as I look :D

Oh my god the voices in my head are finally coming back!

2011-02-23T18:42:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAH GP LESSONS ARE SO AMUSING NOWADAYS :D

Anyway, because I have to do what i HAVE TO DO in order to do what I WANT TO DO, here's an informal hiatus :)

2011-02-20T20:07:00.003+08:00

I had some stuff to say earlier in the day, but I've since forgotten all that I intended to say. Anyway, this weekend has been spent studying intensively for the upcoming tests- or timed assignments so they are called, but there's no difference really- note the use of the word intensively and not effectively. Productivity has been rather low for the whole of this year, I've no idea why. It's really worrying though. And I'm worried.

China studies has been taking its toll on me, to think it was the subject that I insisted on. Sigh. I think history has been picking up this year though :) Econs too. Then again I haven't sat for any tests for econs, so until the results for the upcoming test comes out, I really can't make any statement about it. Econs, Math, History, CSE. In order of preference for the subject, and in no way at all representative of the marks I'm getting for them. Honestly I don't think my math is THAT bad o___o Results prove otherwise.

Ought not to waste any more time typing this, time to work on the essay outlines.

Bye.

P.S. Trivia: Insects can't feel pain cos their nervous system is not as complicated. Apparently, so I read on yahoo answers yesterday. Reliable or not, it makes me feel less guilty about killing ants :] I hate ants. The ones that bother to struggle earn a little bit more time on earth, but the ones that don't enjoy a quick and painless death :] I suggest you don't struggle.

2011-02-19T16:54:00.004+08:00

Precisely why I say if Ethan Ruan and Tiffany Hsu ever breaks up, it's definitely the guy's fault.

***

"

2011-02-18T23:08:00.003+08:00

To do over the weekend:

MUST-DOs
i) Intl' History Tutorial
ii) China Studies SBQ

MUST-STUDY
i) China Studies- get essay out. Or something. (MON)
ii) Econs. MUST NOT SCREW UP. (TUES)
iii) SEA History- Indonesian lecture notes (TUES)
iv) Math Differential Equations Class Test (WED)

IF THERE'S STILL TIME
i) Figure out complex numbers. Stop arguing already.
ii) Read intl' history SBQ, understand the table
iii) Read UN study package

GOGOGO I CAN DO THIS.

2011-02-11T22:03:00.002+08:00

I have two loves in my life. One is JAY CHOU CHIEH-LUN, and the other one is ETHAN JUAN CHING-TIEN. Both are amazing people who deserve whatever connotations which come with the word idol, cos they are truly amazing beings. Determined, dedicated- they are.. amazing.

T_T

Time's never a factor in friendship :)

2011-02-09T20:12:00.003+08:00

2011-02-05T01:51:00.000+08:00

Make good use of today before today becomes yesterday~

after much thought...

2011-01-30T00:12:00.003+08:00

I've since decided against comparative terms altogether when describing human beings. Words like "best" are disrespectful to the ones being compared, especially towards the one "not-as-good". Don't think there's an accurate basis of comparison in people at all, y'know what I mean? Everyone is just unique. HMMM I guess comparison of skills/ ability etc. can still be justified though, but just not the person as a whole.

I mean I'll probably still use these words soon, but really, just downplay the significance of the word cos it's just not right.

Random rambles.

2011-01-29T13:03:00.008+08:00

[text to be added a while later, am super busy with school now :(]

MATURE 18

Thank you everyone :) Classmates, Schoolmates, Ex-classmates, Ex-schoolmates, Tian/ Jielun/ Mayday fans, friends of friends, cousins, relatives etc etc. Had a really, really pleasing birthday! Simplicity is best.

Jielun's present for me hahahaha :D RELEASED ON 27TH JANUARY!! EVERYONE GO SUPPORT JAY'S HOLLYWOOD DEBUT PLEASE! ^_^ With very very little bias, I honestly think Jay looked really awesome and cute in the movie. The movie's story may be rather bleahz, but otherwise everyone was really cute :) Especially Jay.

Some of the best friends I could ever get :D

FROM THE MOST AWESOME COUSIN IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD :D

BAGUA TREAT

FROM THE AWESOMETASTIC CT, Mr Koh :D

SUSHI TREAT

I'm officially the Red Hippo

2011-01-29T12:30:00.004+08:00

Event: The Green Hornet Gala Premiere [Red Carpet]
Location: The Cathay
Date: 24th January 2011
Stars present: Jay Chou, Seth Rogen, Michel Gondry

On 24th January 2011, I went to meet Mr Jay Chou. Investing in F&N paid off, and subscribing to Sony newsletters proved beneficial too. I won a pair of tickets from F&N; plus a pair of tickets to both the premiere and the red carpet from Sony :D Yes, I'm always rather lucky for stuff like this :D

HMM. JAY LOOKED REALLY GOOD IN SINGAPORE. After looking at the event pics I can only say I really, really regret not having went to the Bugis event :( The only reason for that is because of my immense hate for Bugis though. The place is small, cramped, sucks regardless of sun or rain. I've no idea why practically all events are held there -.-

Anyway, so on 24th January I had a good sleep and headed to The Cathay straight :D Organisation was pretty good and surprisingly enough it wasn't toooooo crowded hahaha. Plus with the red carpet wrist bands, crowds were not an issue at all :P Talk about being right in front, Tammy and I were at the very very first row which was really near to the stage o_o I need a DSLR.

Picture spam next!

I really missed Jay after this :( Hahah I guess it was because of how cute Jay was in the movie XD I've since watched it twice already, and let's just say I'm really, really proud of Jay :D

// review to come soon!

lack of sincerity and effort

2011-01-23T02:37:00.003+08:00

1. I'm incapable of bad formatting. Appearance counts, really.

2. I've zero-tolerance for notes with bad english. They piss me off especially in the middle of the night, when my brain isn't exactly working too well already. And fact that I can still register the mistakes then, means they're actually pretty damn obvious. Not that my english/ grammar is awesome of course- hence reflecting on how extremely repulsive the mistakes are.

3. Words like "Sorry" and "Thank you" should never be typed as "sry" or "thx".

2011-01-17T00:20:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHLOE! :)

Lots and lots of love,
子愛：）

2011-01-09T17:30:00.005+08:00

EDIT: FALSE ALARM!!! PAISEH FALSE ALARM MR RUAN STILL HAS HIS HAIR :D :D :D :D YAYAY

I love tian's arms now.
His forearms are awesome too.
Not to forget his face of course.
But ATM my love's extended till his face only
BECAUSE OMFG

MR RUAN SHAVED HIS HEAD AGAIN

2011-01-07T13:30:00.003+08:00

This post is here simply because I want a prettier post on top.

MR RUAN IS NOW PART OF THE PEPSI FAMILY! They signed him on before he got the Golden Horse, and there was this official press conference thingy in Shanghai last week. I hate how often he goes to Shanghai btw >( But still, yay pepsi. I used to love the Pepsi family too- but that was uhhh, 6 years ago cos Jay Chou was in it HAHAHA. I can still remember the promo pictures; they all had blue hair and were at this egyptian deserty place. They all seemed really cool and it was as if everyone COOL was in the Pepsi family, y'know EDC, Jay, Louis Koo.. I can't remember if Show was in it then @@ But yah. It seemed cool-er.

Living up to the elaborate Pepsi-style ~.~

I eventually moved on to the coke camp though, simply because I preferred the taste of coke. THERE IS A DIFFERENCE!!! So yeah ~.~ Guess the endorsement is still a recognition of his popularity now though, so....... Yay.

Apart from this... Uhhh he's still having lessons for his next movie, 血滴子. AND OH I love his arms now!!!!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE HAHAHAHA apparently he has been working out quite a bit ^^ OHYEAH

:D

***

JUST FOR MR CHOU, I've decided to buy more F&N Seasons drinks, and DOMINO'S PIZZA.

These promotions are rather reasonable actually. They are stuff I'd buy even without promotions, so. I'd really prefer a DEFINITIVE winning chance though, like hey you can buy this set and we'll give you a premier ticket. WOULDN'T THAT BE MUCH BETTER? I think responses wouldn't lose out to this current system too, cos I, for one, am discouraged by non-confirmatory stuff. It's like I might just be wasting my money at the end of it all (of course I still got the food&drinks, but YOU GET WHAT I MEAN). So more often than not when it's a lucky draw system I opt out.

Unless I really do want to win something though, like what I'm doing now :] Jielun dearest you're still ranking at 0! :D

Waiting for the Pizza to arrive now lalala. GIVE ME A PAIR OF TICKETS KTHXBAI.

EDIT:

IT ARRIVED IT ARRIVED!! & my mouth stinks of onion (& cheese) rings and garlic bread now. Hahahahahha but I'm full, satisfied and happy.

But of course I'd be even more satisfied and happier with a pair of tickets to the premiere. HAHAHAHAH

***

2011 TIMETABLE

I've to admit the timetable got me a teeny weeny bit excited for school. I don't know why. It just did @@ But that doesn't mean I'm excited for school now. I am not.

I haven't finished my homework I haven't finished my homework I haven't finished my homework! Having uncompleted work leaves this tugging feeling in your heart which REALLY prevents you from truly enjoying anything, but ugh! I just don't want to complete it. ACTUALLY, no I do want to complete it, but I CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't write, I've NIL general knowledge, my vocab is non-existent, my grammar sucks, and I'M HORRIBLY LACKING IN CONTENT. It's like my brain only wants to make space for and only has interest for non-academic stuff. Once anything turns into academic material, i.e. I HAVE to study for it, I've an obligation to know it well; I lose complete interest in it.

Which is why I insist that work and interest do not mix. I don't want to work in a field which I'm really passionate in because I think the obligation and hate for work will eventually drown whatever passion I used to have in it. So! At the moment, at least at the moment, I think I'll go the practical route and try to earn more money first, i.e. maybe the stuff related to $$$$$, like econs or something. I don't know.

Am I supposed to have already thought out a comprehensive plan for the future? Cos the first question that adults pose when they hear that I'm in JC2 is: What do you plan to do in Uni? I'd reply with a frank HAHA I DON'T KNOW, and they'd be HOW CAN YOU NOT KNOW. I JUST DON'T KNOW OKOKKOK!!!! -__- Sheesh. I think I need to think of a standard reply just for these people.

So for now, to ensure that I'm able to CHOOSE what I want to do in the future, I'd better commit myself more to studying and getting good results. Then maybe after the A's, I can really sit down and see what I want to choose, instead of what I CAN choose or HAVE TO choose. There's a difference alright :]

Okay imma go off now to make true my words. IT'S ALLLLLLLLLL GOOOOOOOOD. LETS GO :D

2010-12-31T02:30:00.002+08:00

I'm not motivated to do a round-up for 2010. Actually, today doesn't feel like the last day of 2010. I think I pretty much depend on school to remember dates, so should it still be the holidays- my brain still treats the day as part of 2010.

I've been treating everyday like a Friday for the whole of this holiday- i.e. not actually doing anything productive, cos it's only FRIDAY. Y'know, the self-assuring mentality that you still have Saturday and Sunday. Sadly though, after rotting away all these countless Fridays, I realised that I don't actually have "Saturday and Sunday" to make up for all the time lost anymore. Time flies.

... Sigh.

I don't want to whine. So.

Resolutions for 2011

DOs:

1. Study hard.

2. Stay motivated & happy.

3. Give it your all for everything.

DON'Ts:

1. Don't procrastinate.

2. Don't Sleep late. (Shit it's 2:40 am already -.- UGH THIS IS THE LAST DAY OF SLEEPING LATE)

3. Don't play hard after studying hard. Rewards always last too long. I'd be lying to myself if I said "a little too long"; they're just WAY too long. Don't think "hey I just did -blahblahblah-, I deserve a break" The only time this thought should come into mind, is after the A's end. Then it'd be rightful play time.

4. Don't... have happiness as something fixated on the actions of others. Don't have it based on anything uncontrollable. I don't know how to phrase this correctly. Don't regard happiness as a relative concept too. Just because others are having it better doesn't mean you're having it bad. "ENVY" is useless. Happiness isn't relative; everyone has a different definition for it, so... there's no basis of comparison. Ah I'm drifting further and further away. Basically, stay happy.

5. Don't judge.

6. Don't probe. Should others want to let you into something, they'd take the initiative. I hope. Wouldn't- or rather, shouldn't- have the time to probe anyway. Keep to the first DO. Study hard.

7. Don't whine.

8. Don't be narcissistic. Don't yearn for the attention of others.

9. Don't think in terms of status updates.

***

Okay that should be it.

Good night.

2010-12-16T18:35:00.002+08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE INVITE ETHAN RUAN TO SINGAPORE SOON?! LIKE BEFORE NEXT SEPTEMBER COS ANY LATER THAN THAT, HE'S GONNA BE AN ARMY BOY IN TAIWAN.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEEEEEEEE

***

On a happier side note,

I was looking at my emoji keyboard and then I saw the photoframe on my table. OMG

好像喔哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

2010-12-13T20:01:00.004+08:00

LESSON OF THE DAY:

Instead of procrastinating again and again over something, just get started on it and get it over and done with. I fretted over my China Studies proposal for more than a month; and when I finally decided to do it this morning-- I completed it within 2 hours.

SO NEVER DRAG YOUR FEET OVER SOMETHING! You either give something your best, or don't do it at all. GIVE IT YOUR BEST OKAAAAAAAAAAAAY! :D

I feel for you :(

2010-12-10T03:01:00.001+08:00

2010-12-08T13:17:00.002+08:00

My favorite ever idol drama is 王子變青蛙
My favorite ever character is 單均昊
My favorite ever drama pairing is 明道+喬恩

2010-12-08T01:25:00.003+08:00

Okay a few rants here.

1. THE BREAKOUT

Since it's the hols now and I feel like I must enjoy it to the fullest, I decided to catch this 9pm MDC production. You know, just to spend a bit more time on brainless entertainment.

Oh my god it is so spastic I don't even know where to start ._. And considering it's only two episodes into the show..... -_- Maybe spastic isn't the word-- it's just out of the world (well, out of Singapore definitely- what country is it set in anyway?!), extreme and... illogical. Guo Liang's family is a bunch of lunatics- I never knew metal illnesses were contagious. I may be a little prejudiced against DYT- so imma not comment on his acting; but Ou Xuan's rendition of her character seems weird too. Whats with the crazed and "seductive" voice?!?!!?!?!?! UHHHHHH

Also, the extremeness of DYT's character -_- The weird tribal stuff appearing during the beginning of the show aside- just WHAAAAAT is with him (and his dad) killing (literally) everyone who offends them?! Since the private possession of guns is banned in Singapore and it's dangerous to carry a parang around; y'know what he decided to do? Tie a bright red fire extinguisher to a rope thingy and then SWINGGGGGGGG it, hitting the victim's head and sending him to hell. I MEAN SERIOUSLY?!!! & How high-profile it is-- my oh my what exactly is the Police Force doing??! FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE IT'S SET IN 2010, IN SUNNY LITTLE ISLAND SINGAPORE.

..... I don't even know what to say.

It's like a big production though, so. Uh. Imma continue watching it. Brainless entertainment, right? Don't tell me to not watch it if I have so many complains-- I just need to rant, you know? Yes.

2. TVBS 國民大會

So after watching the 9pm show today, my aunt called to inform that this very show on channel 828 is talking about tian. My mom and I switched on the TV in the living room, and I was initially rather thrilled to see tian's grandparents and his childhood photos on the big screen. I mean, awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. Then the VCR stopped and it was now the hosts' time. I hate the hosts (or are they permanent guests? w/e I don't really care) They consisted of two "veteran" reporters, and a (retarded and snobbish) fortune teller person thing.

The first time I watched this show I already had something BIG against these people, especially the fortune teller. I don't know if I blogged about it before, but anyway the whole show was spent gossiping about the whole hotel room scandal; and they decided to debunk (or rather, ignore) whatever explanations tian gave, claiming that it was just LAME. Also, they decided to predict if the relationship between tian and weining are gonna last. This obnoxious fortune teller guy, at this point of time, decided to exclaim that the real skill of a fortune teller doesn't lie in predicting when the relationship would end- COS IT WOULD DEFINITELY END- it's predicting WHEN it'd end. Oh my god would you please predict your own death already?

THIS EPISODE THEY DECIDED TO TALK ABOUT THE LONG FORGOTTEN SCANDAL AGAIN. How repetitive everything they said was-- it was like watching that episode all over again. Plus everything they mentioned, (TRUE) FANS WOULD KNOW ALREADY. Adding that professional and discerning tone to whatever you're saying doesn't make it new or exclusive concrete news!!! Ugh! The fortune teller irritates me till no end. 死M字頭!!!!!!! He thinks we're still living in the 80s- where the Four Heavenly Kings and Aaron Kwok's Mr Mcdonalds hairstyle was still the IN thing. NONONONONO get rid of your center screwed-up parting for your own sake!!!!

Personal attacks aside, the show needs to start getting the facts right. I could find mistakes in most arguments!!!! T_T Mostly time issues (like when what was happening or co-current events), but actually everything else had big issues too (either that, or they were just stuff that we all know already) My mom said I'm only this agitated and un-entertained by the show because I like tian- she personally liked the show -_- I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY T_T But dear commoners please don't be misled by the show. Be entertained, and forget about w/e they said!

STUPID STUPID STUPID.

P.S. In case anyone is gonna attack this for not specifying anything that was indeed inaccurate, just raise it up and I'll attack argument by argument just for you. I DON'T DO BASELESS ATTACKS

P.P.S. I don't have anything at all against constructive criticism towards tian. Honestly. In fact, if you're just an ignorant person I wouldn't mind baseless opinions too. Just don't give me that know-it-all and almighty tone; cos then I'd feel inclined to say something. Yes? :D

Okay enough ranting for today.

Good night.

2010-12-04T21:07:00.003+08:00

[Pic Spam ahead I don't really care ^_^]

Okay here goes an update, cos this blog has been devoid of a proper post since....... quite a while ago. Ha.

Let's start by talking about my boy. HAHAHAHA

Sooooooo. ON 20TH NOV 2010, ETHAN JUAN CHING-TIEN WAS CROWNED GOLDEN HORSE BEST MALE LEAD! 金馬影帝!! I'm horribly proud of him ^_^ After being in the industry for so long, having been through all crap and criticism and disappointments- even considering leaving the entertainment industry- He has finally got some official recognition. Of course the recognition was already present when he was nominated, but I guess receiving the award just brought him another step further.

TAIWAN'S PRIDE! Y'know, it has been 11 years since any Taiwanese actor claimed this award. This time, Mr Ruan allowed the trophy to remain in Taiwan T______T I think I'm going to cry T__T

Drama aside, I think Ethan is truly a worthy recipient of the award. Yeah! He didn't wear a red underwear that day for luck!!! Any guesses for the color of his underwear? XD Hahahahha it isn't yellow, isn't black, isn't grey, isn't orange; if anything it's transparent cos HE DIDN'T WEAR AN UNDERWEAR THAT DAY HAHAHAHHA. Um. ^_^ Yep. No underwear.

Okay so the main point is just; where he is, whatever he has got now, he earned all of it. GOGOGOGO BOY IT'S JUST THE BEGINNING!

Y'know what they say, behind every successful man there's a woman. Here we go~ Weining, she who has been through it all with him~

Hahahhahahahah FUCKYEAHHHHHHHHHHHHH AND

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IT'S REAL!1111111!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

***

On a HAPPY HAPPY note, those curious about the previous post......... Basically I met him on 28th Nov in Shanghai. 8 Days after he got the award, and I totally forgot to congratulate him @_@ Hahahaha. Anyway, he was just his normal self-- no airs, friendly and amusing as ever.

I told him FTLY was broadcasting in Korea too........ And he let out a really loud KAMSAHAMIDA! <-- just imagine a shocked Japanese warrior saying that. Hahahahha :D

YUPYUP so he was still his retarded usual self. Fans needn't worry about him getting all proud yah.

Okay that's about it for him for now. He.... is having lessons for PETER CHEN KEXIN'S
Movie now :) Filming starts in Jan! Yeah!

***

Okay back to myself.

So I just returned from Korea and Shanghai 5 days ago. Korea was... fine. I wouldn't say I didn't enjoy myself, but I definitely didn't enjoy myself as much as I did last year in Europe. The food wasn't too much to my liking- I'd still rather food be served warm. Unless it's Japanese food, in which case cold stuff are just awesome. The BBQ stuff and steamboat wasn't too bad though ^^ But DESPITE being in Korea for 8 days- and that would amount to 8*3 = 24 meals, I didn't touch kimchi at all. Not a fan, sorry @@

THE ICE CREAM WAS GOOD THOUGH!

It was like, everywhere ._.

Okay actually forget what I said about the food being bad. The food the tour agency provided was bad, but roadside stalls, Korean snacks and all- they were really good.. :D

^ This I no like

^ These I like ^^

(Eye-)Candy not bad also. HAhahahahaha

The last time I went to Korea was when I was primary four. Visited a few more places this time, including the filming site of Winter Sonata (which I didn't watch, but of course I know how the poster looks like) and JEJU ISLAND (!!!!!!!) I loved Jeju Island. I enjoyed it so much more than Seoul (personal preference kinda thing, I like the feel there) (On a side note, Singapore is pathetically small -.- I've always thought Jeju Island was like, just a small island kinda thing (I know SG is an island too, but YOU KNOW); turns out it's still twice the size of Singapore. Oh my Singapore is like puny. It's... really a dot. . <- SG)

I loved the Teddy Bear Museum!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Such an amazing place T_T

[PHOTOS TO BE UPLOADED; PHOTOBUCKET REFUSES TO COOPERATE!!!!!!!!!!]

Okay I'm tired x_x Part 2 will come...... soon. I think. Hopefully. Sorry for the abrupt end -.-

TILL THEN :D

oh my god

2010-11-29T22:44:00.001+08:00

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT?!

2010-11-29T18:53:00.001+08:00

我老大是金馬影帝!
我認識影帝!
影帝認識我!!

老大, 謝謝你 :)
你真的每次都把我弄到好開心

我愛你

♥♥♥,
子愛 :)

2010-11-19T02:42:00.002+08:00

OFF TO KOREA (& SHANGHAI)
BACK IN 10 DAYS DON'T MISS ME COS I WON'T MISS YOU ^^
BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEB

如果沒有你

2010-11-15T01:01:00.000+08:00

I really am bored.

Mr Ruan, he who looks good with any hair

2010-11-10T21:58:00.003+08:00

I'm rather reluctant to push the b'day post down, but since this post is on tian too I guess everything's cool. Hahahahha

I think Mr Ruan's head-shape makes him look (Y) with virtually any hairstyle at all. Either that, or I'm just so hopelessly in love with him :P Which is kinda possible too.. but Love's not blind. It sees but it doesn't mind :D Hahahahaha

Was watching hana-kimi for tian :D SO HOT SO CUTE *DIES*

(P.S. Hipstamatic rocks :D)

Also, my new iPhone wallpaper which I absolutely love.

DOUDAO UPLOADED PICS OF WEINING KISSING TIAN TOO AND OMG T________T <-- tears of joy. HIS BDAY PARTY LOOKS SO FUN OMG T_T

When my iPhone lights up
When I see his retardedly cute smile
I meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelllllllllllltttttttttttttttt innnnnnnnntttttooooo a pudddddddddlllllleeeeee liiiiiiikeeeeeeeee thiiiiiiiisssssss

2010-11-08T00:00:00.001+08:00

Here’s wishing you lots and lots of joy and happiness to come and an awesomtastic love life with your equally awesome significant other :D Have a smashing birthday! And best of luck for that golden horse 12 days later ;P (Not that it matters that much though, regardless you’re the best in our hearts <3 Best, ever.)

2010-11-05T18:05:00.000+08:00

People are stubborn because human brains are merely rationalization machines. You make up your mind about something, and regardless of whether the decision was rational or completely nonsensical; whatever follows, the reasoning or whatever-shit-you-call-it, are simply stuff churned out by your brain to rationalize the said decision. As a result, only your actions and decisions are justified.

That said, I agree that my brain functions this way as well. That doesn't mean I'm devoid of sense though @@ Insistence on a particular idea may also have some logic behind it... Yes? It's just that the brain ought to be blamed for one's failure to recognize flawed decisions. Ha.

***

Anyway. It sucks that I write better in English and speak better in Chinese. Like seriously D: I can communicate in both languages, but bleahhhhhhhhhhhzxzxxzxzxz :( Dearest brain and mouth ah, can you two please cooperate to make me effectively bilingual :(

ON A HAPPY NOTE,

IT'S THE HOLIDAYS! School ended on a rather bland note yesterday (actually there was some drama just before I left, but hmm). In the sense emotions did overflow in the morning- there were tears and all- but as Project Work filled in the void after Ms Kumar left for her meetings, these emotions died down too. I did feel particularly IN the class yesterday though :) It's all good. Thank god I chose to change my subject combination at the start of the year :)

This year has been rather eventful. I'm not going to do a year review just yet, but for now lets just say that this year has been rather overwhelming. Interestingly the year flewwwwwwwwwwwwwww by too. Like FLEW by. Almost half of my JC life has been completed already ._. 365 days from now, I hope I'd be all cool and prepared for the As 8D As for As baby! So pray I stay motivated this holidays; if you see me playing too often please hit me on the head. And get me to study.

I'm going to Korea in 2 weeks! 14 days from now, I'll be on the plane weeeeeee. My mom was the one who chose Korea this year ._. Was quite apprehensive at first- I wanted USA (West Coast again)- but I AM REALLY QUITE EXCITED FOR KOREA NOW HAHA. I want to buy lots and lots and lots and lots and lots of stuff :D Food and stickers and cute stuff and shoes and jackets and clothing yeah!!

Plus it's gonna be cold in Korea! :D Yeah awesome. I love cold weathers :) Just so you know, cos of lots of stored-up fat, I'm highly tolerant of low temperatures. I hate the weather in Singapore, it plays a part in how bad my temper is I swear. So yep! I love jackets too :) I've lots of jackets but cos of the mad temps in bloody hell, I usually settle for t-shirts only :( Jackets rock. I can finally wear my Stay Real jacket -_-

Okay what else. So I'm still kinda tied down by PW now, but come Tuesday PW would be a thing of the past. Because yesterday is definitely gonna be an easy day, the me tomorrow shall not look down on the me today-- ziai shall put in her best :) Lets go!!!!! :D

Hey :)

2010-11-05T01:26:00.005+08:00

Dearest 老大!

SOMEONE IS TURNING 28 IN JUST 3 DAYS! HOHOHO

Y'know, while photoshopping a new header for your FC... I've been looking at a lot of your photos. Your genuine and infectious smile never fails melt my cold & cynical heart,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for everything really, my most amazing idol ever :)

LOVE!
ziai

2010-11-04T00:49:00.003+08:00

Is it okay to just have a few close friends in life?

Facebook doesn't think so.

子愛林's account was set up a year ago when Facebook banned my main account (reason being a claim that my account was being used for malicious purposes by bad people -_- Nonsense really, it was just because of my logging in to Facebook from dubai and europe then in Singapore again -_-) SO cos of my some registration thingy for some event then, this account was set up. And because it looked horribly pathetic with 0 friends, I added Wolfy. Following which, she became 子愛's sole friend.

The account got a lot of friend requests, and despite me never responding to any of them, requests kept coming in -_- Initially I had no idea why this was happening at all, until today. FACEBOOK HAS BEEN ASKING FOR FRIENDS TO HELP 子愛林 FIND MORE FRIENDS.

It just isn't accepted that some people just want to be left alone huh? TSK YOU FACEBOOK! Loners rock okay.

***

Anyway. I've since lost all my photoshopping skills. Like seriously. Or rather, my brain has been DRAINED of creative juices till the very very last drop. I absolutely cannot photoshop pretty stuff, I don't know how to fill in blank spaces, and I'm only capable of BLEAH works. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH T_T

Mr Ruan's birthday is coming in 4 days. WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!!!!

2010-11-04T00:38:00.001+08:00

I CAN'T PHOTOSHOP T_________T

Dunning-Kruger effect

2010-11-01T13:38:00.003+08:00

Food for thought :)

Dunning–Kruger effect

The Dunning–Kruger effect is a cognitive bias in which an unskilled person makes poor decisions and reaches erroneous conclusions, but their incompetence denies them the metacognitive ability to realize their mistakes. The unskilled therefore suffer from illusory superiority, rating their own ability as above average, much higher than it actually is, while the highly skilled underrate their abilities, suffering from illusory inferiority. This leads to the situation in which less competent people rate their own ability higher than more competent people. It also explains why actual competence may weaken self-confidence: because competent individuals falsely assume that others have an equivalent understanding. "Thus, the miscalibration of the incompetent stems from an error about the self, whereas the miscalibration of the highly competent stems from an error about others."

2010-10-27T17:33:00.002+08:00

This is a weird personal preference kinda thing, but I don't exactly like to read stuff in italics. In blog posts that is. HMM stuff like:

Am I really happy?

原來是我看錯人了

Perhaps, it's time for me to say goodbye.

I mean, what are you trying to do?! If you've to say something, just say it! Why the subtlety that calls for misleading interpretations?!!!!

Also, I hate stuff that are not explicitly negative. SLIGHTLY related to sarcasm, but not exactly--- I enjoy sarcasm too. It's the stupid stuff that are neither amusing nor funny, with obvious negative connotations that, IMO, comes from one trying to be smart. And failing at it ~.~

GRRRRRRRRR

Maybe I shouldn't have posted this

2010-10-25T22:06:00.001+08:00

Screw you China!!! For the 49282059824204295029502th time, TAIWAN IS NOT PART OF CHINA. PFFFT YOU CHINAMAN.

2010-10-23T14:59:00.001+08:00

Screw you project work! Stop eating into my time!! :(

Sigh.

2010-10-17T00:29:00.003+08:00

Sigh. Lim Zi Ai, you're such a loser.

I feel like I've disappointed myself horribly. Finally packed my table yesterday, saw the question papers for promos, and I felt so guilty. Guilty for having not worked harder then, guilty for not having thought through everything carefully, guilty for not having put in my best effort when doing the papers.

I don't want to look for excuses. I don't want to cry over split milk either; but I really cannot stand how everything went. I hate it when ideas only come to me at the end of a paper. I hate it when I realize I screwed I am in the MIDDLE of a paper. I hate it when my brain automatically gives up midway. Fuck, promos were a week before- I'm clearer of the content now than I was when doing the papers. And it's not even like I studied this week. Y'know who's taking the blame for this? Me. Procrastination. Not having studied earlier. IF YOU KNEW YOUR BRAIN NEEDED THE TIME TO PROCESS THE INFORMATION WHY JUST WHY DIDN'T YOU STUDY HARDER EARLIER?

I'm also tired of making resolutions. Of telling myself it'd all change after the holidays, of lying to myself that this will never happen again. Cos you know what, I've been doing it since sec 2 and it never worked out. Lack of determination? I don't know. Motivation never lasts long too. I may be feeling motivated now, tomorrow I'd tell myself it's okay, and soon this "it's ok" mentality develops itself into endless procrastination, eventually resulting in anxiety when exams are nearing, and guilt when everything comes to an end. I hate it.

To be optimistic I think it's kinda good that I'm realizing what is wrong with me. I mean at least I'm not living in constant self-delusion. Why am I not doing anything to solve the problem though :( Or rather, why do I lack self-control so much?

Sigh.

Oh also, don't ask me if I'm stressed or if I'm okay or not. Cos I don't really like showing that side in front of friends? It's just... I don't know, I can't bring myself to be sad in front of y'all. Hahhahaha. Except for that few, haha. So..... Hmm. I don't know.

2010-10-12T23:40:00.004+08:00

Okay I think my blog is quite screwed now -_- The tagboard is just a spamboard, my posts are incoherent and the last proper post was made like 849284928492 years ago. So here goes; an official revival of this blog :)

Things I've yet to talk about:

1. Yeah! Mr Ruan has been nominated for Golden Horse Awards :) He's deserving of it IMO :D :D :D Heh and evidently, I am really, really, really, really, really proud of him. I don't know, having been through all the disappointment of not being nominated for the GBAs last year and all the crap he went through, I'm more than glad he's finally getting some official recognition.

There's a total of 4 nominees; of which the only one I know is Tian....... and I don't think it's cos I'm ignorant @@ Hahaha. So yep GHAs will be held on the 20th of November in Taoyuan, Taiwan. DO CATCH IT! AND PRAY THAT HE'LL GET THE AWARD :D

Few icons here :D (Just cropping plus a little tweaking, really)

2. Promos....... were......... bad. Hmm :/

3. Liberation was good. I hardly had rest time directly after the math paper (my last paper) actually, HK friends were here and I just had to play with them :D Not an obligation, but rather a want! They're still as awesome as ever :) I still really admire expressive people. I'm one who just cannot vocalize how I feel, what I'm thinking, how much I care for you etc. I just can't. Quite sad, really :/ But I hope they know I really love them :D

9th Oct:

Places visited: Orchard Rd Shopping, Singapore River Cruise @ Raffles Place
Food: Peanut/ Coconut pancakes (basically local snacks), Chicken Rice, Bah Kut Teh

The Singapore River Cruise was actually not bad hahahah. The nationalistic tone featured in the recordings were amusing hahaha. I mean it did make me feel kinda proud of Singapore's achievements, but LOLOLOL. I think Singaporeans are just a pretty un-nationalistic bunch ^^" Oops. Or maybe it's just me.

Either way, it offered a really good view of Singapore :) GO IF YOU'VE NOTHING BETTER TO DO! HMMMMMMM at night: Bah Kut Teh was good. I recommend Ya Hua Bah Kut Teh!! It opens till 3am at night! :D Awesome dine-out place after a concert or something.

10th Oct:

Places visited: Singapore Zoo, Orchard (again), Resorts World Sentosa
Food: Local food at Ah Meng restaurant for them, KFC for me; Coffee Bean, Xin Hai Shan Black Pepper crab + Fried Rice + A lot of other stuff :)

The stuff at the Zoo were so expensive @@ No student meal for KFC also :( But the zoo was not too bad actually. The last time I was there was probably what, 9 years ago? So I hardly had any impression of the zoo @@ That said, it turned out pretty good :D Animals were roaming around OMG THE MONKEYS o______o And hmmmmmmmm YEAH it was a good trip :D Save for the bloody hot weather @@ Which, actually, was a problem almost everyday -_- But that's better than rain I guess.

Resorts World was pretty too :D The candylicious shop! OH MY GOD IT WAS SO PRETTY. They should allow photos in the store though, I mean hey why else make it so pretty? The restaurants at Sentosa closed too early though :( And being tired + hungry makes one grumpy :( Never a wise combination.

Xin Hai Shan at night! Cos HK friends wanted to try Black Pepper Crab :D The food there was good-- but way overpriced. One crab cost us S$78 @@ Like seriously, one crab? Otherwise though, the fried rice, sweet potato leaves and all were really, really good too. The price just needs to go down.

11th Oct:

Places visited: Universal Studios, Vivocity
Food: Local food @ The Toast Box, Bah Kut Teh instant noodles.

Universal Studios Singapore-- I really enjoyed it :) I think the quota everyday is kinda apt actually, it was awesome how queues were mostly short- and bearable. I've been to the Japan one and US one too, and this is by far the amusement park with the shortest queues :D Considering it's Sunday as well- that's just (Y). Everything else was pretty good too (paiseh lack of vocab -_-), but the food wasn't too impressive. Hmm.

AT NIGHT I chatted till wee hours with my dearest friend :) It was good :) As always :) And I did up my letter for Ruan dearest HAHAHAH.

And that marked the end of their Singapore tour and mine too. Sigh. Fun moments are always too short and hard to come by :( I......... am one to live in memories. Hahah

4. I'm too lazy to do anything constructive now -_- And the thought of Project Work pisses me off- I refuse to start :(

5. TADA OFF TO SLEEP WILL POST AGAIN SOON :D

2010-10-12T01:38:00.001+08:00

HELLO

THE HIATUS IS OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR YAY!

:D

2010-10-01T18:12:00.007+08:00

HI ALL MY DEAREST BOY IS NOMINATED FOR GOLDEN HORSE AWARDS 2010!!!!

ETHAN RUAN FOR BEST MALE LEAD BABY GOGOGOGOGOGOGO

阮經天 OWNSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSXZXXZXZ

Who cares about that bell when the majestic JIN MA IS HEREEEE FUCK YES!

2010-09-25T04:05:00.001+08:00

LOOK AT THIS! IT'S CALLING OUT TO ME +DDDDDDD

...

No seriously, I'm ****ing stressed.

2010-09-09T23:07:00.003+08:00

--- a post to break the hiatus ---

Hello, say hello to my new love!

Joseph Gordon-Levitt, made of 100% love.

************

Also, new iPhone wallie:

I WANT THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-09-05T23:39:00.002+08:00

HIATUS

2010-08-29T23:54:00.002+08:00

I've been sleeping so much everyday. In fact, too much. Regardless of how much sleep I got the previous night, once I face the books, the brain starts slowing down. I honestly can feel it slowing down- and soon, I'm in dreamland. Which, if I had a choice, would really be a much better residing place than in reality.

Also, I'm starting to dread school. School is a lot better than last year, in the sense I do get everything that's being taught in lessons. I'm not as lost as I was last year, where everything physics or chemistry sounded utterly alien to me. This year it's relatively okay, things do get into the brain.

But that doesn't stop me from dreading school.

There's a number of reasons why I dread school, of which most of them just cannot be expressed here cos of readership. Blogs would never replace journals, because blogs just have to be censored. Some people don't censor blogs, true, but in my case- I think I'd rather keep the thoughts to myself lest I offend anyone. Think I've touched on this quite a number of times already, so lets just leave it at that. I'm still a weird introvert through and through.

I dread going online too. I dread checking Facebook and Weibo. Cos there still exists some things, some people; whose feeds/ timelines irritate my brain till no end. You know, sometimes you aren't offered a choice to avoid something. For one my willpower definitely isn't strong enough, so despite my knowing of the consequences, I still can't resist temptations to click into stuff.

I don't know.

Sigh.

I think ultimately, it's just me getting sick of life.

2010-08-29T23:12:00.003+08:00

有求於人的人一象沒權利說話

2010-08-23T21:18:00.004+08:00

I abhor bad formatting.

Just like how I appreciate long replies cos I really do fancy the complete thought put in, bad formatting just reflects on your lack of willingness in doing something. Like okay take it or leave it, that's what I have to offer kthxbai. Hello, are you even putting in effort to save whatever popularity you have left? I don't think so.

It's not even a matter of being IT savvy or not; everything is but BASIC formatting. I never enjoyed having anyone shouting at me- not even in the virtual world- so for heaven's sake, DON'T HAVE EVERYTHING IN BLOODY CAPS COS IT JUST MAKES YOU SEEM LIKE YOU'RE SHOUTING AND HENCE ANGRY FOR NO REASON AT ALL. NOBODY LIKES UNREASONABLE PEOPLE AND I WOULDN'T EVEN BE BOTHERED WITH THEM. I DON'T THINK THAT'S THE WAY TO EMPHASIZE WHATEVER YOU WANNA BRING ACROSS TOO; WHAT ARE THE BOLD/ UNDERLINE/ HIGHLIGHTING FUNCTIONS THERE FOR?!?!?! Are you offended by this? Yes? Good cos I was equitably pissed off by your whole page of caps too. They are study notes HELLO? So much for the advocation of good English. Thank god for MS Word sentence case formatting.

You see, I do recognize the effort you put in and know for a fact you've the knowledge too; but that's just not the way to bring things across. Also, blasting on students and using reverse psychology on them is just not the way to garner sympathy or popularity votes. It just makes the few who still vaguely support you feel like finding a hole to climb into; cos you know- no one likes to be seen supporting absurd people.

I sigh, for you.

2010-08-23T20:49:00.003+08:00

"Never let your memories be greater than your dreams."

“If the grass is greener on the other side, maybe that’s because you’re not taking good care of your grass.”

2010-08-16T22:47:00.006+08:00

Mr Ruan participated in a charity race (organised by Jet Li) over the weekend, and my oh my was he hot.

Yes, he was both hot, and hot.

HOT

HOT.

Shanghai was a sweltering 41deg; I really can't imagine how bloody hot that is cos I'm already melting in Singapore which is a whole 10 deg lower than that, or even lower. Coupled with the race suit, I think it's amazing he didn't drown in a puddle of sweat.

Nevertheless, still sweating a lot.

Anyway, so apart from surfing and rotting at home with his gaming consoles, Ethan also has a thing for cars. It's a guy thing I think, I never really understood the obsession for cars. Just like how they don't get my fascination with idols, so I would think it's a gender thing that doesn't need to be debated over. Trivia fact for the uninformed, he drives an Audi S3; got it when he was filming BaiQuan. He loves his car.

Hmmm he arrived in Shanghai on the 13th, and proceeded to the race track to practice right away. OH YES when he arrived at the airport, his dearest girlfriend was with him too :D The two of them are sooooooooooooooo sweet :love: (Look at his tieba for the pics, imma not pic spam) They didn't come out together though, but that doesn't mean they didn't arrive together *hinthint*

Anyhoo Friday and Sat were meant as prac days and the match was planned to be on the 15th, but owing to the mourning day in China, the match got postponed to today--- the 16th of August.

Results of the match? Okay lets first establish that he's a very confident guy, and I'd think he's very competitive too. He got FIRST on the first practice race, owning the rest of the HK celebs (which included Ekin Cheng, Aaron Kwok, Qian Jia Le and Wu Jia Le-- just google them, I think it's just the names that are unfamiliar ;)); so I'd think that serves as a confidence boost too. Fans who were there commented that he only steps on the accelerator and hardly breaks at all. (You know, here's another trivia fact: He claims to be able to drift -_-)

BUTTTTTTT today he got fourth =( I really can't say anything cos I wasn't there to view the match, but............ I think fourth is an okay position already. He dropped from the 2nd to the 4th bah. First was 錢家樂, followed by 吳家樂, then Aaron Kwok and finally him. Okay finally is the wrong word to use here, there were more than 10 competitors so the fourth position is already awesome.

Wouldn't congratulate him though, anyway I'm pretty sure he'd be BIGGER and STRONGER the next time he participates in this kinda race again.

MMMMMMMMMMMMHMMMMMMMMMMM that's about it. He's back at Taiwan already, in the arms of his lovely girlfriend (Okay I made that up, but HEY TODAY'S VALENTINES DAY!!); So meanwhile imma go back to my work.

The point of this whole post, then, is just to inform you that Mr Ruan was bloody hot at the Shanghai Charity (Celebs) Race.

(I claim no credit for any of the above media, pictures courtesy of ethanbar.com (Baidu 阮經天吧), or otherwise watermarked; video from gar8513 @ Youtube)

2010-08-16T22:20:00.004+08:00

You know, sometimes as much as I'd like to deny it, claims of me wasting money are not really unfounded. I always say I don't buy small stuff, so I don't spend a lot, but today I realized that I actually DO buy small stuff without realizing it at all.

In a bid to find wrapping paper today, my mom opened the wardrobe and searched for it. Instead of finding wrapping paper, bits and pieces of dry plastic bag shreds stuck to her hands and fell to the ground. What plastic bag? HONG KONG DISNEYLAND. It has been sitting there since the end of sec 2 I'd presume, so the plastic bag is literally ROTTING already.

One of the smaller ones that is still intact:

While sweeping out the remaining shreds (ugh), there appeared to be more stuff under the clothes =O Stuff which I've bought but never touched since.

This includes transparent poker cards (super cool I tell you, the Disney logos serve to block the numbers and symbols while all the other parts are transparent, keychains, handphone blingblings and manyyyyyyyy other things.

I wouldn't think I'm impulsive actually. In the sense I still find them really cute and I'd probably still buy them if you present them to me again, but they are just useless stuff you know. I don't *use* cute stuff just like how I don't use celebrity merchandise either, so they just sit in the cupboard, taking up space :(

If I buy them, I don't EXACTLY regret buying them, but they just rot there. BUT if I don't buy them, I know I will grow to regret it. Seriously. It's my theory of JUST GO AHEAD TO do/ buy something that you're hesitant to buy, cos should you not buy it, you'll always regret it more than having bought it. I stand by my theory. In the short run.

OKAAAAAAY FINE Aish I blame my mom for some of it :[ Being the very nice mom that she has always been, I hardly ever stop buying cute stuff. Cos she agrees too. And trust me, fact that she lets me buy it means she thinks they are cute too. I'm not trying to push the blame to someone else really >(

This habit started since young.

You see, before Taiwanese idols started invading my life, cartoon characters already started drilling into my pocket. I've Bad Badz Maru utensils, notebooks, plushies, money banks. Not to mention Hello Kitty, I've amazingly got quite a number of her stuff too despite my not remembering ever liking her.

I really need not elaborate on what I started buying after I started liking all those Taiwanese idols, but lets just say I've fell hopelessly for F4 too before. Ohhhhhhh welllllllllllll.

I'm guessing this current devotion to just 2 idols is good then? :D Meanwhile someone needs to tell me how to resist small temptations like this :(

2010-08-16T18:14:00.002+08:00

I WANT TO BLOG!!!
I WANNA BLOG ABOUT HOW RIDICULOUSLY HOT (well, literally too) MR RUAN LOOKED AT SHANGHAI!!!! ( ^_^)/~~~ That boy, really.

Time's pressing tho, but imma blog soon.

PERSPIRATION CAN MAKE ONE HORRIBLY ATTRACTIVE AT TIMES.

2010-08-10T11:28:00.003+08:00

Do you've that few friends whom you'd just wait anxiously for them to start a convo, regardless of your desperation to talk to them; because you're just scared? :/ Sigh.

***

Hmm today's the last day of the long weekend. It's sad how I hardly ever accomplish what I set out to do, but then again I should be used to it considering goals like complete-all-work-by-XXX never works out. I did up a pretty to-do list on Friday, and it has been sitting there ever since. Okay I managed to strike out one item from it, but the other five sitting there stares right back at me.

What's with human's greed and envy towards others? You know, envy is really one greatest source of negative emotions. It is, too, an useless emotion. Yeah I've seen quotes asking one to turn these negative thoughts into positive ones, such as by enabling enviousness to empower you; but really just how difficult is that? Quotes really only make more sense when you're not currently in *that state* Otherwise they do make sense, but they don't work.

How do you overcome it? I've no idea, anyone cares to share? Mine usually goes away by itself after staying for a while. But throughout that time, I feel miserable. Like ughhhh kinda miserable. UGHHH is a very expressive word, yes? :) It expresses the ughhh-ness of not being able to express a ughhh emotion :D

I'm currently pondering over what to do. You see, I think watching a movie would eat into too much of my time, but even w/o watching the movie, I'd probably waste that time away too. It still doesn't seem wise to watch a movie now though. I think it's a case of leaving some excuses for yourself; at the end of the day even if nothing's accomplished you can tell yourself hey I tried my best already, okay?

Anyway, so random stuff.

Mature okokok I kid you not.

Cerfified workable by my mom; hence my motivation of the rest of the year. I actually do think 65% is too heavy a weightage. If you screw that up, you're screwed. That simply equates to saying if you're screwed now, and the promos are screwed too, you can forget about saying byebye to the screw.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-08-05T23:10:00.003+08:00

Hi,

If you ever borrow my stuff/ notes, DO NOT (!!!!!!!!!!!) fold/ crease/ damage it IN ANY WAY AT ALL, cos I'm OCD like that. DO NOT CREASE THE PAPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've quite a number of pet peeves and this is one of them. The fire in me ignites, and we all know I don't have a good temper to begin with. DON'T PLAY WITH FIRE DON'T TRY ME.

GAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FSJFIOSJHIGSIOJGSJIIGJSOGISJOGOJSOGJOJS

T____T

2010-08-04T21:36:00.007+08:00

Okay the following post has absolutely no intent of competition or rivalry, so. Peace.

I was looking at eddie's news and saw this headline --> 彭于晏太入戏　哭出浓稠鼻涕

The article basically stated that Eddie's crying scene in his latest movie earned him the title of the "male lead with the most and longest mucus ever" <-- okay that sounds plain weird, the chinese version of it reads “有史以来鼻涕最长最多的男主角”.

This (coincidentally, but not surprisingly) reminded both Wolfy and I of MR RUAN'S CRYING SCENE IN MONGA, cos he had a horribly huge lot of mucus too.

Refer [CLICK FOR FULL-SIZE GLORY!]:

I really, really applaud Eddie if his is really longer than that of tian's hahahahhaha.

2010-08-02T00:17:00.002+08:00

Does eating too much of something make you allergic to it? D:

I used to love love love eclipse mints; I'd finish one box a day to keep myself awake. But then I stopped for a while, and then when I started eating them again I'd get rashes everytime :/ Friend said it might be psychological, but why would it be?!?!!! :/ I'm also allergic to prawns apparently. Which I don't particularly love cos of the shell, but like nevertheless. This is sad.

ALSO, I stopped drinking milk since primary school. My mom said I used to drink 7-8 bottles a day as a baby, which is quite a lot apparently. Uh- one fine day though, drinking milk started to make me feel nauseous and I stopped drinking it. I now still avoid all milk in it's truest form, and flavored milk. I still love milkshakes though, and milky ice-cream is pretty okay too. I think there's some psychological effect involved in this one...

Anyway, it's Sunday again. And once again, I declare this weekend a highly unproductive one. Went to YJ on Saturday for the China Studies seminar, half the time I didn't know what was going on. Had nice naps on the bus jouneys though :D Long rides rock at times. Mmmmm proceeded for lunch at XinWang with Ms Claire after that; it was awesome. Went home for a nap after that, and woke up to watch Ai (which is getting increasingly nice hahahah egoistical bastard finally gets his desserts yeah) with my mom, and I started nagging at her for some stuff. You know the world is turning upside down when it's my MOM telling me not to nag at her. Wow.

Sunday... was spent watching the finale of 宮心計 again. I still don't like how SanHao didn't end up with the emperor =( We all complain about how dramas are always deceiving us and all, but I think when it comes down to it, we all still want to hold on to the hope of an idealistic world; hence the desire for happy endings. GXJ didn't exactly end happily. The Tang dynasty was in peace, but the main characters of the show were all either dead/ mentally ill/ handicapped/ lonely or left to suffer in the palace. Sigh.

I like the whole 存好心, 做好事, 說好話 thing actually (it IS corny though). BUT aeh. Quite hard to achieve in this selfish world me thinks. Still, 苦中一點甜!! <-- I really like this phrase. Holds a lot of significance I think.

After that... I went back to my room and started watching time fly with the computer. At night we went to stock up the fridge at NTUC, and after that I loaded TTV to catch my 鐘無艷 :D This character doesn't really suit Mingdao :/ I prefer him with really chauvinistic and *man* characters like JunHao, boyboy childish ones really do not sit well with him. Sigh. He's still good though :) It's all good :)

Should I dedicate a few hours a day to memorizing essays? My brain really isn't good enough for a arts student =( It has a super low capacity =( And I'm not hardworking enough to make up for it hahahaha sigh. Also I write too slowly; I didn't complete a single paper this time round -_- Results were satisfactory (to me) though, and I'm glad :D REMAIN THIS WAY OR GET EVEN BETTER PLEASE!! Cookies for my brain or whatever it asks for if it doesn't fail me for these 2.5 months ^^ Yay!

Okay imma go see whats left to be done, till the next time!

2010-07-31T19:32:00.006+08:00

I'm not that addicted the computer anymore. Y'know, now I can actually push the off button without feeling any hesitation or *tug* on the heart.

Yay me.

So. I've been on a Jay high since the concert 8 days ago; I'm remembering why I so liked him back then, and everything else about whats so likable about him. I think many celebrities are underrated for being "real". For one, I hardly ever heard anyone saying anything about how real Jay is, but IMO he is really real. and funny. Hahahahh

I'm knowing him one day.

***

Actually I think Mr Ruan, apart from having nice forearms, has nice fingers too hahahah. Why isn't he a pianist =( Then again he doesn't have the face of a pianist. I can only imagine him bouncing and hitting random keys to produce disastrous tunes (.______.'') It's okay, just concentrate on being an actor- I've Jay for the talented musician. No conflict of interests!! Both of you are equally loved =D

Also, me thinks there's a similarity between my loves :D

... :D

***

I've been browsing a lot of tumblr sites with random cute and meaningful pictures. Some of them are just so true; and others, motivational or inspirational. Nothing in this world is meaningless I think. Well apart from my fangirly posts, but lets keep that talk for another day, I've to have an avenue to spaz you know. Lonely only child has got no one to talk to D: (okay no I'm kidding, but anyway)

via @iseekneverland

2010-07-29T20:44:00.002+08:00

There’s so much in life that we want, the cutest guy, the popular friends, the greatest attention. And when we grow a little older, we want the most prospective jobs, the greatest salary, the nicest car. And maybe a little older later, we would want the happiest family, the most faithful husband, the sweetest children. A while later, we want the healthiest body, the closest family bond, and the happiest memories. And as years pass by, I realise that the things we yearn for, are actually getting simpler and attainable. I guess its a process of growing, maturing, and learning that life isn’t as complicated as we think it is. It’s just a matter of understanding what is defines happy. Being happy isn’t simply just an emotion, its an essence of life, a living purpose. It isn’t easy to be happy, but it isn’t impossible either. No one can tell you how to be happy, only you can. So stop going about asking people why are they happy all the time, cause their answer cannot define your happiness.

Y'know, as much as I like, and see nothing wrong in being a loner at times, this is rather true :(

There’s still something which I have not learnt. I’m scared to be alone. I’m afraid of that awkward feeling which boils within you wen you’re alone, like people are staring and gawking at you constantly,and this destructive feeling makes me feel so horrible. That’s probably why I respect people who care to spend some time alone, because I cannot bring myself to do that ever. Maybe, its just that I care too much about how people perceive me, how others judge me. I’m just too worried about everything, it pulls me all the way down.

2010-07-29T20:09:00.002+08:00

// MY 天倫之樂 DIDN'T FALL INTO PLACE AND RUAN IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT!!!!!!!!! =(
Why oh why did you even get yourself injured?!?!?!!?!?!!! I'D HAVE DIED TO WATCH YOU WITH JAY =(

2010-07-28T23:14:00.002+08:00

xiaoen said I'm promiscuous. I swear I'm not >( I'm devoted to two people, and two people only.

Sigh. People who only just got to know me may not know this, but I'm a huge JAY CHOU fan :D The first online forum I joined was jay-chou.net; and the only forum which kept me occupied for all the boring days after PSLE, EOYs etc. was also jay-chou.net. I find solace in hanging out with JCnet members; basically my life would be extremely extremely different without JCnet.

Which, would not be in existence if not for Jay Chou. Hence, Jay Chou will always be an important part of my life.

New wallie:

:D I LOVE IT OMG. Like the previous wallpaper, this never fails to cheer me up whenever the iPhone lights up :love: And I get the tendency to pout back at him hahahaha. Why sho cute <3

Hello, Mr (revived-love) Chou

2010-07-25T13:16:00.005+08:00

My 1.5TB external HDD has broken down. That means most of my Jay videos and all of my Mingdao videos are gone. All the movies and random stuff are gone too. like POOOOOF. Well technically they are still there, but they can only be accessed for S$300. And I'm not spending that money >(

Oh well. Nothing is impossible with google anyway, imma find all those stuff that disappeared. Buying premium accounts and leaving the PC on the download will also cost less than 300 anyway :)

***

The next day after the THE ERA AUTOGRAPH SESSION, On 22nd July, I said:

Hello, Mr Chou.

Summary of yesterday:

[ziai]:
it was kinda orderly until zhiyong came
followed a while later by the limo
EVERYONE BEHIND OR GODKNOWS POP OUT FROM WHERE CHIONG TO THE FRONT BY THAT WAY
and there was no barricade; no security AT ALL

_`pearl ☼YOUNGBAE:
OMG LAME (N)
FAIL

[ziai]:
YAH
OMFG PISSED TTM

_`pearl ☼YOUNGBAE:
did you stay till the end or what

[ziai]:
no lah
stay till the end for what
cant even see when you're in front
cos when he sign everyone crowd in front of him

_`pearl ☼YOUNGBAE:
-____________-"

[ziai]:
sign lookup move sign lookup move sign lookup move

_`pearl ☼YOUNGBAE:
see whether he got sign finish anot mah lol
got shake hand?

[ziai]:
zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
no
no

_`pearl ☼YOUNGBAE:
did he say thanks?

[ziai]:
no

_`pearl ☼YOUNGBAE:
DID HE SMILE?

[ziai]:
~.~

_`pearl ☼YOUNGBAE:
......
lucky i never go
i'd be pissed :X

[ziai]:
can you ask something that i can give a yes reply to

_`pearl ☼YOUNGBAE:
is he shuai

[ziai]:
...

_`pearl ☼YOUNGBAE:
were theere a lot of people -.-

[ziai]: yes

_`pearl ☼YOUNGBAE:
(LAME)

[ziai]:
YES
YES

Yes it was that fail. Hmm I'm not disappointed by Jay, more like I'm disappointed by the whole management and all. Both my coupons got tore but only one managed to get autographed, someone return me $40!!!!!!!!! :"( I specially picked the numbers of his birthdates somemore hahahahaha. BLEAH.

(On this note, I think I've been disappointed by Jay a lot -_- Rewind 5 years + 1 month + 1 day ago, I first cried over a celebrity cos owing to some weird turnout of events, I didn't exactly manage to see him -_- THANKS TO THE CROWD TOO ANW. That was followed by... Secret premiere? Which was possibly the most fulfilling (Jay) event ever. Then it was the 2008 World Tour, which was, too, super cos I managed to get a row 7/ row 2. The KungFu Dung premiere on 3rd Feb '08 was fun too. Following that though, the future events were kinda shitty. I don't even want to be reminded of last year's Treasure Hunter premiere, and this autograph session was the worse event I've ever came across.

To be noted HOWEVER, I don't exactly exactly regret having attended any of the above cos with the exception of June 21st 2005, I had awesome company for all the rest of the events :) COLOR BEINGS ROCKXZXZXZXZXZ, I'm super awed by Tammy's devotion to Jay, plus JCnet peeps are all too awesome ;D And and the people Jay comes with are always awesome hahahahah)

At this point of time, I just wanna say I think I really wouldn't attend future (local) Jay events anymore. Concerts and premieres are out of this "events" though :P It's very... unsatisfying. Also, having liked Jay since so-long-ago, now it's more of a habit to chase him- it's hardly passion motivating me anymore. He is still as talented, songs are still amazing, concerts (should) still work wonders; but let it stay there :) I reaffirm Jay's position as No. 0 Hahaha. Ranks before 1, but not exactly before one :D Hahahha whatever, as long as it makes sense to me.

He's... Hmm. Just not the one that makes me genuinely happy anymore. His songs still do though :)

So... CONCERT TOMORROW! :D Me thinks it ish gonna be awesome :)

I'm waiting, Mr (old-love) Chou.

**********

NOW, after the 2010 JAY CHOU WORLD TOUR:

I take back my words about not attending his events. The next time, imma make sure I get VIP treatment for them. Hahahahhahahah

Jay's concert was way awesome, I loved the big sing-along songs. He owns, you know. He owns. I'm not gonna do a complete review (yet), but my stand is positive- this is Jay's era.

HIS LYRICS DISPLAY IS AWESOME HAHAHAH

MERCHANDISE

His merchandise is hopelessly awesome too, LOOK AT THIS CRYSTAL PIANO (MUSICAL BOX)!!!!!!!!!!

I swear pictures don't do this thing justice. It's just... ahh. Much thanks to WEN MEI for helping me secure this, I owe you much much.

This is his era.

2010-07-24T21:19:00.003+08:00

Okay this post is for real but I'm not being exactly serious about it; but please contact me at ziai@ohmytian.com should you want:

-> Energy 另類人生 (Alternative Life) book (I can't even remember how much I bought it for, I'll let it off at uhhhh say.. $15?)

-> Monga 艋舺 Pictorial @ S$20

-> Jam Hsiao FIRST LIVE CD (AUTOGRAPHED) @ S$20

ALL of the above are BRAND new, plastic packaging never once opened. BRAAAAAND NEW. They are for sale cos as I attempted to clear my cupboard for new stuff, they got into the way as duplicate copies ~.~

2010-07-20T23:10:00.000+08:00

HAI

Someone spare me from lying please. I really don't want to lie and it's my fault for having forgotten the significant date of 23rd July, BUT OKAY WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO NOW?!?!?!!??!?!?!?!!!!

I AM NOT FREE ON THAT DATE I AM SORRRY T_T

2010-07-19T21:16:00.004+08:00

SUNDAY is the feel motivated day. It's okay, I'll be hardworking over the weekdays to make up for today's loss- to finish whatever hasn't been studied.

MONDAY is the NEHMIND or WHATTOSTUDY day. You might feel like studying, but somehow there's apparently nothing to study. Anyway it's okay, it's but Monday, I still have Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday.

TUESDAY is the GAH WHERE DID MONDAY GO CAN-YOU-PLEASE-STUDY day.

WEDNESDAY is the OH ****, now half the week is gone- ****. EMO =(

THURSDAY is the IT'S OKAY I CAN CHIONG TILL WEE HOURS, IT'S FRIDAY TOMORROW day. FRIDAY'S COMING MEANS WEEKENDS ARE HERE BABY! You can sleep in on Friday/ Sat/ Sun so it's okay to stay up late.

FRIDAY is the slack day. Cos uh. It's Friday.

SATURDAY is the I-should-not-waste-today-again day; cos of how unproductive you were the previous day. Sadly you procrastinate a lot, and you only get started a few hours before it's bed time. You might or might not continue with the work, cos there's still Sunday.

And we reach Sunday again, the **** MONDAY IS GONNA BE HERE AGAIN. You chiong till late night, finish a considerable amount of work, and think okay I'm not gonna waste anymore time, I'm gonna be hardworking over all the weekdays, Lets go.

The cycle goes on.

2010-07-18T03:00:00.003+08:00

Today was an unproductive day. I woke up feeling sleepy, watched an episode of kangxi feeling sleepy, tried to start on work feeling sleepy, and napped for 15-30mins feeling sleepy, in an attempt to curb the sleepiness. All these despite the 13 hours of sleep. Do I have some disorder somewhere?

Sleep oh glorious sleep.

So by the time I started on work it's already 5pm, then I worked till 6 when my mom came back with food. Following the eating and such it was already 7, then I attempted to go back to work. All was successful until 8+pm, when I sorta finished a bit of work, wanted to reward myself, and went to watch 愛 with my mom. Bad decision- stopped work after that.

At 9pm I went down with my mom to check if any water got into the car, cos there was a flood this morning. again. I wonder what would happen if this were a schoolday. No more school? =D Anyway, I tried to help wash the carpets and stuff- and lets just say I really don't like hair and goggdjkgiodgd dirt :( On this note, I also have a phobia for newspapers since young. Not exactly newspapers, rather the smell of it. It's already much better now, I do read the papers, just don't really touching them. I still hate Chinese newspapers. IT SMELLS SO BAD D:

I can smell it already o___o

My cousins used to bully me with newspapers. It'd still work, except nobody does that anymore. Don't anyway, cos I'd flip. Promise.

Anyway, blahblahblah resumed work at 11pm. Stopped math at 12am, so I merely LOOKED at math today, didn't practice at all :( On the happier side of the story though, after I turned on the comp at 12am things started getting more productive. Got out a list of to-dos for PW, tabulated the survey results, and revised the EoM. It was all pretty smooth :)

OH. EXCEPT. I've always been rather good with the computer but I really can't say the same for Word/ Excel. I hate charts and all that shit. At some point of last year I was even using illustrator to create the graphs- that's how bad I am with apparently user-friendly and simple programs like MS Excel. Anyway, it was surprisingly easy to conquer just now, except I just can't seem to remove a line under one of the graphs. I removed all outlines, I checked for other forms of outline, I resized the graph to see if the line is actually connected, I tried all ways to remove the line, but it just wouldn't go.

Pretty soon after I waved the white flag though, I realised the highlighted underline icon. I clicked on it. The line was gone. WHOEVER SAID ONE COULD ALSO UNDERLINE CHARTS?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??

Moral of the story? Don't think too much.

Hmmmmmm after finishing all the work I hopped over to Facebook (not that I haven't been to facebook throughout this period), and saw some stuff that made me pretty D: It's hard to control jealousy. Despite all the enlightenment about detachment from Tuesdays with Morrie, I still find it hard to curb these useless emotions. Jealousy/ guilt/ worry/ regret; they are all useless emotions. Hmmmmmm gotta learn how to open that heart of mine :)

Okay gonna sleep now lest my sleep cycle screws itself again. Next week is gonna be a good good week!! ^^

Ending this post with a trailer of 鐘無艷 (Zhong Wu Yan), the new SETTV drama which stares MING DAO and CHERYL YANG JINHUA (Baiquan!)!

Hello Mr Lin Min-dow. May your character be as amazing as Dang-Ou/ Junhao of WZBQW, cos I absolutely adore them and they are still my favorite characters, ever. I've full faith in your acting skills, so go boy! I hope you're not demotivated by that guy whom you once overshadowed, but is now sorta overshadowing you. I heart both of your articulation and acting skills (I think both of you are rather philosophical hahah- love how much you guys think); May you two get to collab one day :D Caterpillar eyebrows own.

o__o yes, I like you.

2010-07-17T13:48:00.001+08:00

2010-07-16T23:17:00.003+08:00

Talking about university admissions stress me out.
Talking about job applications scare me.
Talking about the future freaks me out.

Sometimes I really feel horribly ｏｕｔ　ｏｆ　ｐｌａｃｅ　ｗｉｔｈ　ｍｙ　ｓｕｒｒｏｕｎｄｉｎｇｓ　ａｎｄ　ｔｈｅ　ｇｅｎｅｒａｌ　ｅｎｖｉｒｏｎｍｅｎｔ. Just like that.

Life is good though. Life is good :)

wetalkabouttheworld @ tumblr

2010-07-14T00:30:00.002+08:00

IＨＥＡＲＴHUGS

COS YA THE SKY <3

Narration of an average day

2010-07-13T18:07:00.005+08:00

I woke up at 6:50am today. Did the normal routine, grabbed my wallet, plugged in the earphones and left the house. I like blasting music when negative thoughts cloud my head and flood my chest- I think they sorta block off the depressing thoughts. You know, drown them off. Escaping works at times.

I stared at the cars on the road, the bus which was 30920492 miles away, either before or after me, and decided to just walk to school. I like being in control. As I crossed the roads and looked into the cars with students happily sleeping, grouchy or not- they were all peaceful. And it dawned upon me how lucky I was to have my mom chauffeured me to school for the past 16 years, despite the schools always being within walking distance from my house. It's really nice to have someone send you to school, to have someone watching over you while you sleep in peace (: Appreciate it!

The walk was a mere 7mins. Saw the friend and her boyfriend, hung out for a while, and went for flag raising. I perspired a lot. And I hate it. This is possibly the only reason why I'm always reluctant to walk to school, I perspire a lot and it irritates the shit outta me. Otherwise, walking to school is good :) Walking is good. Walking clears the mind.

Started the day with a math lecture. Time, somehow, passed rather slowly but it was good; I like the present lecturer :) Econs was good as well, tutor shared her bundle of joy (literally), and we were all happy for her :) Boy or girl, I think he/ she will definitely be really, really happy and fortunate in the future. In fact, he/she already is :) After econs was a 2hour break, something which I dread and welcome at the same time. Had breakfast with Chinwen for half an hour, and proceeded to sleep the other 1.5 hours away. I like sleeping :)

This was written on the desk I was at, and whoever you are, may I assure you that you are not alone. I think it's really hard to cheer someone up, cos I think reiterating things like "I understand" doesn't really help at all, cos that person is still suffering. Nevertheless, think of us the fellow sufferers and I hope you feel comforted.

It was history tutorial and GP after the nice nap. I *rarely* have negative thoughts towards a teacher actually, so I don't particularly enjoy listening to criticisms. Especially the ones that don't make sense, y'know. I don't like hatred. As much I'm about the most cynical person ever, I really don't like hating anybody at all.

I went home straight after school :) Went to eat with my mom and we talked a lot. Hahah nothing special actually, I love talking to my mom. She understands me, she's open to whatever fanatic ideas I might have, she shares her experiences and offers me comfort. She worries for me, she asks me to sleep earlier every night, she feels guilty when I my unreasonable requests aren't satisfied, when really it's just me being ridiculous. I love my mom.

Bought Mos Burgers and went home after that, started working on the China Studies scrapbook and digressed; hence this post. Am gonna be watching TV in a while, I've since started watching the MDC 7pm show everyday :) It's strangely addictive though I abhor the instrumental that rings whenever two hands touch. It's over-used, cheesy, and hardly achieves any effect. You really don't have to emphasize the physical contact between the two people, cos usually I notice the contact first and I know it's time to start bracing myself for the irritating instrumental.

Would I be amused by these posts 10 years down the road? What I have is time actually- that is, in the long run. I'm only 17, that's barely 1/5 of my life. Don't envy the ones so much older than you, it's but a matter of time :) Financial capability yo. Everything is gonna work out when I've the money and the time. Freedom is not an issue with my liberal mom. I'm sticking with her all my life. I don't care.

I lead a good life and I'm happy :)

2010-07-12T01:24:00.004+08:00

My name is Lim Zi Ai. I don't like typing my name as Zi Ai cos it looks a little too formal, and I don't like Ziai too cos it looks weird. Hence, ziai, without the caps and space.

還是子愛方便 :)

**

On a side note, I'm all prepared for the WC finals 1 hour later :D GO SPAIN!!!!!!!

GO SPAIN!

2010-07-11T17:40:00.002+08:00

I've been making wishes a lot lately. 11:11am, 1:11pm, 1:11pm, 1:11am... Whenever I see these timings I'd make wishes. Sometimes I close my eyes, and should the time be 11:12pm when I open my eyes, I'd feel sorry for the wishes that possibly didn't make it. These wishes would then come first the next time :) It's always only that few wishes though, hahaha. I try not to be greedy :]

You know, acknowledgment is important. Recognition, acknowledgment of what you've done. Doing things for the sake of portfolio though, hmm :/ Portfolio. Say by the end of college I've a big fat portfolio (which btw is still non-existent :(). The university which I'd applied to would take it into consideration, and say if I get in, it's time to work hard for good results again. With the diplomas and certificates and w/es upon graduation, the potential employers would then take a good look at them and decide whether to employ me or not. Thereafter, *presumably* I get a good job, reasonable pay check, connections.... and uh- what's after that? Who would look at all these achievements anyway? Do these results constitute how much value you've as a person? How worthy you've lived your life? Doubt so.

Hahaha this is so econs. High GDP =/= High SOL. Likewise, lots of achievements =/= good life. Bleah I'm still figuring out how I want my life to turn out.

***

I'm not a morning person. In school it's slightly better cos the buffer period of walking from my house to the busstop and the busride which follows give me a litttttttttle time to wake up. BUT when it's the weekends, and you're MAKING ME wake up for something, really, don't talk to me.

Yesterday my mom woke me up at 10:00+am to try the KFC a.m. breakfast. Both of us have been wanting to try it since forever, so. Anyway I slept rather late the previous night (i.e. average time), so I kept refusing to wake up. It was already 10:30 by the time we set off, so we reached KFC at 11:00am sharp. The not-exactly-nice crew manager shouted that there was only porridge and waffles left- the stupid twister meal was out already. Considering I already wasn't in a good mood before this, I was even more pissed off with this turn-out and my black face got even blacker.

WHY DO BREAKFASTS ONLY LAST TILL 11AM ANYWAY?

All breakfast timings should be like White dog cafe:

Now I consider that human ~.~ So anyway, the point I wanted to make was just- I'm not particularly nice in the morning. Not like my temper is good in the afternoon/ night, but I promise I'm nicer than I look :] :D

Hahahha

Google: Macs > KFC

2010-07-10T00:15:00.000+08:00

2010-07-08T22:27:00.001+08:00

This got me laughing a lot today HAHAHAHAHHAHA

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Insecurities?

2010-07-08T18:37:00.005+08:00

I look at my MSN contact list
I see you online
I see sad smileys on your display name
I double click
I don't have the courage to initiate a conversation

More often than not, I don't initiate conversations over MSN cos I'm scared I'd just be bothering someone. I don't know. I really don't want to appear irritating; or make it an obligation for anyone to reply me, so I don't start the conversation. It's also really scary to have to wait for a reply from someone you care about, cos my insecurities suggest that you're not exactly that willing to reply. So it's really common that I regret immediately whatever message I've sent out.

On this note, if the reaction is at the other extreme- say you pour your heart out to me, I'd be more than willing and happy to be a listening ear, but I really, really suck at comforting others. I don't know what to say apart from cheer up, I don't know what to suggest; I can only listen. Bahhhhhhhhhh I hate my inability to say anything remotely useful or comforting =(

Someone teach me how to comfort others? :(

***

Hmm Haha I've been in the holiday mood since the block tests ended. Results are coming back slowly, but I haven't gotten enough subjects back to reach any conclusion yet. Life... has been boring but I've been thinking about a lot of stuff. I still don't have the courage- or rather, I still don't enjoy- posting personal stuff here though.

I like keeping to myself. Hahha it has been a habit since young. Good or bad, I've no idea. Mmmhmm. So actually it's not exactly wrong to say I'm introverted HAHAHAHAHHA but the ones who're reading this should be the ones I'm very comfortable with and hence I'm not the least bit introverted in front of you :D :D Yes yes? Good ^^

Either way I'm definitely more extroverted online. I think it's less embarrassing to really voice your thoughts/ confess your feelings with text ._. Hahahah so yes I'm high online, I say ILYs and all that, but I may just need a little more time than the average human to warm up to you in face :D (Um. This is going to be kinda weird, but I'm really more comfortable around people older than me (& by that you can really be a lot older), I feel like I can fit in better ._.)

Aish what else. Someone remind me as and when to study, cos I really lack the pushing force. The motivation part is okaaaaaay, I just need someone to get me started! Wooo (also I'm increasingly convinced that it's not my school, but my dearest idols who determine my examination dates. Honestly. I think I can base my exam periods to their schedules)

OKAY OFF TO WATCH THE 7PM SHOW :D

Tuesdays with Morrie

2010-07-06T21:57:00.004+08:00

Yes, I said, but if aging were so valuable, why do people always say, "Oh, if I were young again." You never hear people say, "I wish I were sixty-five."

He smiled. "You know what that reflects? Unsatisfied lives. Unfulfilled lives. Lives that haven't found meaning. Because if you've found meaning in your life, you dont' want to go back. you want to go forward. YOu want to see more, do more. You can't wait until sixty-five. Listen. You should know something. All younger people should know something. If you're always battling against getting older, you're always going to be unhappy, because it will happen anyhow."

EDIT: HI Okay I know that I talk about Tian so so much that I'm already also starting to get on my own nerves, but please do bear with me as I attempt to exercise restraint D: So, I am reading Tuesdays with Morrie and this line reminded me horribly of Tian:

I came to love the way Morrie lit up when I entered the room. He did this for many people, I know, but it was his special talent to make each visitor feel that the smile was unique.

I SWEAR TIAN HAS THIS TALENT TOO

2010-07-05T01:47:00.001+08:00

LIFE ROCKS OK

2010-07-04T22:44:00.004+08:00

I lead such a pointless life .___. Pointless, pointless, pointless!!! Okay actually I do have a point at times, just more often than not, life really.... gah.

Anyhoo some pictures of Eddie Peng in SG!! :D

Event: Eddie Peng 非愛不可 [EP] Autograph session
Location: City Square Mall
Date: 3th July 2010

DELICIOUS ARMS

Followed by delicious food @ Iluma :D

And Koi :bounce: :bounce:

Okay that's it for now, I'm not in the right state of mind now (not like I'm ever in the right state of mind, just saying)

Good night world =(

2010-07-03T01:20:00.002+08:00

I am so, so so glad I got to know the two of you :]

The first to guess correctly who these "2" people are gets a treat :P